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for the people that know me well....you know that no too many good things have come to me in my life.....and when they do i drive them away like it was never menant for me to have anything good in my life....then hannah came along.....with me being as honest as anyone could be...i LOVE her...her smile made me want to look at the face till the end of time....its so beautiful....if i were to say she was beautiful she would deny it....but she is far more beautiful than anyone can dream....her eyes draw you close and make you want to smile...tonight was homecoming!....far more different than mine....there were no cheesy lines...wandering thoughts....unwanted people...just me being there with her was enough for me to last a lifetime....i overcome things like DANCING!....lol i can't still but it was a start i guess...but the whole time i looked at her....wondering what would have happened if i was not there...if i was not there to be her b/f....what if someone else was there...and she was unhappy...what if she was alone?!....see and while i was thinking that i was also thinking or trying to think of a better place i could have been if i was not with her...and well there is NO other place i would rather be...i would rather be there right now....she is one of the best things that has ever happened to me...she makes me want to be a better person...she makes me want to be happy all the time...she has my heart...and she is has never really done anything to it....but i also have hers and i have punctured a little hole everytime i hold my breath long enough to do something stupid...well im done doing stupid things...i am dxone hurting her over stupid things i should have thought of before i acted upon...and its like i am tripping over my own mistakes...but i am learning from there...see when i hurt peoples feelings i take in account for alot...and i feel horrible for doing it just to a friend....now my g/f i feel twice as bad and there is always the feeling guilty part that gets you...but she never backed down...she was always there...she said she was never going to leave me....and i believe her....i trust her...i confide in her...she has always been there for me from the start....and i could not thank you enough...and as much as i want her here now i know thats not possible...and i still feel absolutly amazed by what i have...i have a g/f...an extrodinary human being...one of the best looking smile i have ever seen in my entire life...you know tonight i was sitting there looking at her....like always....thinking of how lucky my life has been.....and i realiezed that all the things i thought i was lucky for before just faded away....she is my lucky charm....my heart....god has put us together..he knew what he was doing...i love you hannah claire lea....more than you know and will ever know...you have made the biggest impact on my life under god....and i hope you never go away...i hope ilove you never looses its meaning....i hope you never change...cause i love you just the way you are...you are beautiful....even though you disagree i want you to know.....i have never seen anyone more beautiful than you...we are unbreakable...and we are going strong...till 80...i love you hannah...don't ever forget that...