why do i feel like we are falling without a net to catch us?
I don't understand. Everything i do is wrong. Everything i do im an asshole for. Everything i say is not fair to her and only her. As if she is the only innocent one. As if she doesnt make any mistakes, im sure if she was reading what i just typed she would say i never said that, you are putting words in my mouth. The words come though your actions, the way you speak to me, the words just fall like rain. Im sure after the fight we just had you think thats all i want to do, well i don't i have never, but when you say you want to, it gets me excited. I can't wait, cause well its not often that we do it. We have lost the spark in the realtionship. Well not lost but sometimes invisible. I can't stand the person i have become in this realtionship. I have never want to treat you the way i treat you sometimes, but it seems like all i do is piss you off. There is never a time when you are not mad at me. There is never a time when i can tell you how i feel without blaming you for something. There is never a time when i can be right. I never mean the mean things i say to you. Im sorry if i hurt you, i made mistakes there is no doubt about it. Im just clueless about what to do. I just don't understand. I love you, for that im sure. That just might not be good enough coming from me though.