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ok. I just got back from brian's house tonight. we hung out and played 007 on his n64 for a while and played some racing games. then we watched 007movie, tomorrow never dies. it was all good. and then he gave me a backrub..whoanelly. what a nice backrub. this guy is sensual, let me tell you. woo, i was like..ok, his kiss is worth waiting for. It's hopefully gonna be just as good as his backrub. tonight when he said goodbye he gave me a kiss on the forehead. I have no idea what that means. but i did notice that he wrote a new xanga entry and it includes some bit about me. here it is:
"How cool is that. [he's talking about new year's here.] It was me, travis, ryan, jerimey, chris, this guy i don't remeber, amber, and sarah. Me and Sarah have been hanging out like almost every day. She is like the coolest girl i know. Every time i see her its so much fun. She's so cuddly, and i love it. I wana go out with her but for some reason thoes words cannot come out of my mouth in front of her... you would think that her being so cute would actually help the matter but yea. I guess time will tell."
dun dun dun. he wants to go out with me. and then comes the more obvious question..what does going out actually mean? does it mean b/f g/f? does it mean simply dating? To hell with all boys. hehe. if anyone has insight into this problem, please smack me in the face with it. oh yes. i made an entry into my xanga shortly after reading his, sortof in response to it. here's mine..
"I don't know how I feel about guys lately. I still really like brian and all but he hasn't kissed me yet. I don't know why that's such a big thing for me, I mean, I cans till wait it's just building up for me. hehe. I still don't want a boyfriend and I feel like. I don't know, I just don't want to get that serious. Lately zach has been on my case lately, not in a bad way, but I can tell he still has feelings for me. oh man, I just thought what would it be like if I saw Brian on a date with another girl. Or even kissing another girl. *cri* I wold hate it. But that's not what boyfriend girlfriend business is all about. You don't just get with someone just so you can call them mine. It's a whole deeper kind of relationship. That's why I'm just fine with dating right now. I guess I would just have to get over that fact that would mean Brian could date other girls. I would still spend the majority of my time with him tho, he's such a great guy."
"How cool is that. [he's talking about new year's here.] It was me, travis, ryan, jerimey, chris, this guy i don't remeber, amber, and sarah. Me and Sarah have been hanging out like almost every day. She is like the coolest girl i know. Every time i see her its so much fun. She's so cuddly, and i love it. I wana go out with her but for some reason thoes words cannot come out of my mouth in front of her... you would think that her being so cute would actually help the matter but yea. I guess time will tell."
dun dun dun. he wants to go out with me. and then comes the more obvious question..what does going out actually mean? does it mean b/f g/f? does it mean simply dating? To hell with all boys. hehe. if anyone has insight into this problem, please smack me in the face with it. oh yes. i made an entry into my xanga shortly after reading his, sortof in response to it. here's mine..
"I don't know how I feel about guys lately. I still really like brian and all but he hasn't kissed me yet. I don't know why that's such a big thing for me, I mean, I cans till wait it's just building up for me. hehe. I still don't want a boyfriend and I feel like. I don't know, I just don't want to get that serious. Lately zach has been on my case lately, not in a bad way, but I can tell he still has feelings for me. oh man, I just thought what would it be like if I saw Brian on a date with another girl. Or even kissing another girl. *cri* I wold hate it. But that's not what boyfriend girlfriend business is all about. You don't just get with someone just so you can call them mine. It's a whole deeper kind of relationship. That's why I'm just fine with dating right now. I guess I would just have to get over that fact that would mean Brian could date other girls. I would still spend the majority of my time with him tho, he's such a great guy."