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having a digital camera makes people do weird things. i just took lots of photos of myself to try to proove to myself that i can look good. hrm.
ah well. i woke up around 1:30 today. i still havent worked out what made me get out of bed. i think its coz i already felt too lazy so i thought id get up and maybe do something. i really did think about going out. then realised i have no where to go and shouldnt be spending any money. so i got bored. i just listened to wonderful music on my ipod including 'fade to black' by metallica way too many times coz i love that song. then i decided to take photos. of me in that black and white dress i got for christmas. hrm yes. i could post them all on here but really, you all know what i look like so there is no point.
new years eve tomorrow. yay. ive been waiting for that all year. because frankly this year has been a pile of shit and i am often delusional and like to think that somehow, when the year ends, so will all the crap in the world and mine and other peoples lives. fuck you. i know its not going to happen. saturday will be just as pointless and boring and crap as today, tomorrow, and a majority of the days of the last year. when the hell did life get so pointless and boring? and why? i dont know how people can be religious. that was one of my discoveries of last night. the fact that 95% of my life is spent in a dream world was another discovery.
"Things are not what they used to be
Missing one inside of me
Deathly lost, this can't be real
Cannot stand this hell I feel
Emptiness is filing me
To the point of agony"
just lyrics that i think ive posted here before. but that is one of the best songs ever and i love them.
ignore me. i just had the need to complain coz ive been trying not to for too long.
ah well. i woke up around 1:30 today. i still havent worked out what made me get out of bed. i think its coz i already felt too lazy so i thought id get up and maybe do something. i really did think about going out. then realised i have no where to go and shouldnt be spending any money. so i got bored. i just listened to wonderful music on my ipod including 'fade to black' by metallica way too many times coz i love that song. then i decided to take photos. of me in that black and white dress i got for christmas. hrm yes. i could post them all on here but really, you all know what i look like so there is no point.
new years eve tomorrow. yay. ive been waiting for that all year. because frankly this year has been a pile of shit and i am often delusional and like to think that somehow, when the year ends, so will all the crap in the world and mine and other peoples lives. fuck you. i know its not going to happen. saturday will be just as pointless and boring and crap as today, tomorrow, and a majority of the days of the last year. when the hell did life get so pointless and boring? and why? i dont know how people can be religious. that was one of my discoveries of last night. the fact that 95% of my life is spent in a dream world was another discovery.
"Things are not what they used to be
Missing one inside of me
Deathly lost, this can't be real
Cannot stand this hell I feel
Emptiness is filing me
To the point of agony"
just lyrics that i think ive posted here before. but that is one of the best songs ever and i love them.
ignore me. i just had the need to complain coz ive been trying not to for too long.