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Letter to my Depressed Self (While I’m depressed)
This is will pass; you have done it more than you can count on your hands at this point. Yes, things are so much gloomier and doomier (not a word, says the critical self) right now but come October when the weather starts to cool, you will be singing a different tune. Even though all you want to do right now is hide under a rock and not come out until you are your are the excited, generous, loving, sweet, creative self that you are, allow yourself to enjoy life. Don’t let this hold you back from spending time with a friend hanging out at a river, or spending time with a friend to share photos from your vacation, or feel guilty for not doing a single load of laundry while you vegged out on the couch with your husband. Spend time with your parents not because you want them to say some magic words to make it all feel better but because they enjoy having you visit with them. Guilt, anxiety, sadness, self-doubt are at the forefront of your emotions but keep yourself occupied (other than with the thoughts in your head) you will make this so much easier to get through. You are loved by many, supported by many, and you are running out of time because you have to start heading out the door for work. Right now is the time to choose the alternative to what you “feel” like doing.
Right now you feel unattractive even though you are not- put a little makeup on!
Right now you feel unmotivated- instead of sleeping in push yourself to wake up a little early so you can take a swim in the morning, when no one is there.
I don’t want to put any pressure on you than you think you already have, but like I said before allow yourself to enjoy life, even though you’re not (that only makes sense to someone that understands the depression) Be kind to yourself, be kind to those around you.
Same Day Different Hour: 11:41pm to be exact
I felt so much better as the day progressed…back to my old self (almost). Mornings seem to be pretty difficult for me lately, and I’m not too sure why. Typing my thoughts out helped, and realizing that I can recognize and talk myself out of these moods is..ABSOLUTELY..reassuring.