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its over, but on nice-friendly-terms.we met up, talked about the relationship and life in general, decided were still important in each others lives, had one last kiss, came home, watched greys anatomy.
im a little sad, but you cant change a person and he wasnt changing for anybody.ill miss having sumone to sleep next to after a crazy-drunken-night, go to the movies with, and of course having sex.those are lovely parts of a relationship, but not recieving a phone call after 4 days and never getting apologies from someone you adore wasnt fun for me at all.
i just want to dress up, get drunk, eat, go to school, watch shytty television, smoke a blunt, watch my lovely bella, and read a good book..not in that order lol.i dont need nor do i even want a guy right now.i just wanna have fun being me :)
its not that i am anti-guy right now but i was basically back to back in two serious relationships and as much as i still care about both of them, in the end it was ME who wasn't treated fairly.i just need time to myself to really find out whut i want.with rob he cheated on me.as much as that shythead denies it sumtimes, he did infact cheat.so with daine that was all i focused on, "as long as he doesnt cheat itll be okay", and put everything else on the backburner, such as, getting compliments, phone calls, and feeling IMPORTANT. all i cared about was that he didnt cheat on me, and honestly? i would have been better off. its crazy, when a guy cheats girls become so liberated and stronger instead i got a crap load of "ill change ill change" and always ended up dissapointed. when the relationship is in the state of wanting him to put in effort it ultimately ends up shot to shyt and gets filled with failed attempts to "make it work" and it usually doesnt.i grew tired of making it work.if anything, i shoulda called it "making it worse" b/c thats exactly whut happened. i dont wanna screw up my next relationship up by letting my guy get bad habits, b/c thats whut i let daine do. blah im tired of blaming myself.daine is stubborn and im a perfectionist.we both had flaws in the relationship.its over, ill survive.
the end.
im a little sad, but you cant change a person and he wasnt changing for anybody.ill miss having sumone to sleep next to after a crazy-drunken-night, go to the movies with, and of course having sex.those are lovely parts of a relationship, but not recieving a phone call after 4 days and never getting apologies from someone you adore wasnt fun for me at all.
i just want to dress up, get drunk, eat, go to school, watch shytty television, smoke a blunt, watch my lovely bella, and read a good book..not in that order lol.i dont need nor do i even want a guy right now.i just wanna have fun being me :)
its not that i am anti-guy right now but i was basically back to back in two serious relationships and as much as i still care about both of them, in the end it was ME who wasn't treated fairly.i just need time to myself to really find out whut i want.with rob he cheated on me.as much as that shythead denies it sumtimes, he did infact cheat.so with daine that was all i focused on, "as long as he doesnt cheat itll be okay", and put everything else on the backburner, such as, getting compliments, phone calls, and feeling IMPORTANT. all i cared about was that he didnt cheat on me, and honestly? i would have been better off. its crazy, when a guy cheats girls become so liberated and stronger instead i got a crap load of "ill change ill change" and always ended up dissapointed. when the relationship is in the state of wanting him to put in effort it ultimately ends up shot to shyt and gets filled with failed attempts to "make it work" and it usually doesnt.i grew tired of making it work.if anything, i shoulda called it "making it worse" b/c thats exactly whut happened. i dont wanna screw up my next relationship up by letting my guy get bad habits, b/c thats whut i let daine do. blah im tired of blaming myself.daine is stubborn and im a perfectionist.we both had flaws in the relationship.its over, ill survive.
the end.