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I HATE GUILT TRIPS. SO FUCK YOU!
seriously don't make me feel like i'm doing something wrong when i'm not.
you don't like it so get over it & move on.
i do what i think is best at the time i'm doing it & things usually work out nicely.
i don't care really & i was sad to see you go really sad.
but i know you have stuff to deal with back home, thats why i bought the plane ticket & thats why i told you to go.
you have a strong grip on my heart & just when i think i can let you have it you do something so fucked up & uncalled for it makes me wonder if you're ever going to grow up.
but then again who am i to say you're not grown up.. i'm not.
& honestly i want you here with me, every day
i love the way you make me feel.
i like the fact that i can cry in front of you. because i do cry a lot.
but i need to know if you're serious. i need to know if you really want this.
i wont be made a fool because i know how you are. & i wont be that girl again. EVER.
i know you'll be there when i need you & i know you have a big heart
but what you say & what you do are totally different.
i want & need you to change your ways. i want you to move up here. i want us to get a place. but i only want that if it's what YOU REALLY & TRULY WANT.
any decision you make will be perfectly fine. i don't expect anything from you.
you're 26 & i understand that you don't necessarily want to settle down & be a real family. it's ok. seriously. i rather you be happy then be forced into something we'll both regret in the long run.
i know it's spring break & you're probably in daytona right now with the boys & picking up chicks at the club & whatever. even though you've only been home for 4 hours.
but when you read this.. just know that i miss you & i want you here.
please just understand that i don't want you to come back into my life until you have figured out what you want. i don't need to be hurt again especially by you.
seriously don't make me feel like i'm doing something wrong when i'm not.
you don't like it so get over it & move on.
i do what i think is best at the time i'm doing it & things usually work out nicely.
i don't care really & i was sad to see you go really sad.
but i know you have stuff to deal with back home, thats why i bought the plane ticket & thats why i told you to go.
you have a strong grip on my heart & just when i think i can let you have it you do something so fucked up & uncalled for it makes me wonder if you're ever going to grow up.
but then again who am i to say you're not grown up.. i'm not.
& honestly i want you here with me, every day
i love the way you make me feel.
i like the fact that i can cry in front of you. because i do cry a lot.
but i need to know if you're serious. i need to know if you really want this.
i wont be made a fool because i know how you are. & i wont be that girl again. EVER.
i know you'll be there when i need you & i know you have a big heart
but what you say & what you do are totally different.
i want & need you to change your ways. i want you to move up here. i want us to get a place. but i only want that if it's what YOU REALLY & TRULY WANT.
any decision you make will be perfectly fine. i don't expect anything from you.
you're 26 & i understand that you don't necessarily want to settle down & be a real family. it's ok. seriously. i rather you be happy then be forced into something we'll both regret in the long run.
i know it's spring break & you're probably in daytona right now with the boys & picking up chicks at the club & whatever. even though you've only been home for 4 hours.
but when you read this.. just know that i miss you & i want you here.
please just understand that i don't want you to come back into my life until you have figured out what you want. i don't need to be hurt again especially by you.