So I've been sucked back in.
Well I realized with all the things bursting in my head right now I need somewhere to vent. So I came back here. Honestly I don't think anyone will read this thing and I don't really care, I kind of like it that way.
Part of me looks around and loves what I see here, and wants to stay put, throw my arms around what I got, and never let go. The other half wants to throw my hands in the air screaming and come running home to Georgia. I honestly can't even decide if I'm happy or not.
On the better side of things, I have some great friends here. I just can't figure out why they don't seem to fit with me. It just isn't the same. I think once you have had the kind of friends you spent the most important part of your growing up with, the kind that know you better than you do, anything else seems pathetic. I look at my new friends and see people that are amazing and great people to be around, but I dont feel like I have a true friendship, in the way I had with a lot of people that now i barely talk to once a month at the most. The people who for the last 5 years were the most important people in my life have slipped away, and are now people I struggle to keep in touch with. I feel lost in the fact that I dont know anything about thier lives anymore, and even if they tell me about it, I still dont understand, b/c I dont know the people &/or situations they speak of, and vice-versa. I miss those friends, the ones I could call crying at 3 in the morning, that would willingly wake up and talk my troubles away, until I fell back asleep. Looking around here, I don't see a single person who I could be like that with.
As for relationship issues, I will save that for a whole other rambling entry, because its a whole problem of its own.
I feel a little better now.
If anyone actually read this..I miss you.
♥ Alli
Part of me looks around and loves what I see here, and wants to stay put, throw my arms around what I got, and never let go. The other half wants to throw my hands in the air screaming and come running home to Georgia. I honestly can't even decide if I'm happy or not.
On the better side of things, I have some great friends here. I just can't figure out why they don't seem to fit with me. It just isn't the same. I think once you have had the kind of friends you spent the most important part of your growing up with, the kind that know you better than you do, anything else seems pathetic. I look at my new friends and see people that are amazing and great people to be around, but I dont feel like I have a true friendship, in the way I had with a lot of people that now i barely talk to once a month at the most. The people who for the last 5 years were the most important people in my life have slipped away, and are now people I struggle to keep in touch with. I feel lost in the fact that I dont know anything about thier lives anymore, and even if they tell me about it, I still dont understand, b/c I dont know the people &/or situations they speak of, and vice-versa. I miss those friends, the ones I could call crying at 3 in the morning, that would willingly wake up and talk my troubles away, until I fell back asleep. Looking around here, I don't see a single person who I could be like that with.
As for relationship issues, I will save that for a whole other rambling entry, because its a whole problem of its own.
I feel a little better now.
If anyone actually read this..I miss you.
♥ Alli