I won't let this build up inside of me!

[who_you_r_is_me]

Of course this is my life. this is what i built. everything from what i wear to who my "friends" are. all of it is from what i made. and i hate it. but i wont let this build up inside of me. i hate you. an entire world is not good enough for you. i dont know what is, and you wont tell me. but i wont let this build up indise of me. i go everyday, every hour, every minute thinking about someway to show how much love i have for you. and trying to show you so much love leaves me with so much hate. hate because something must be wrong with me. i wont let this build up inside of me. and so this world that i have been building my whole life that i tried to give to you, you rejected it, and i hate the world that i tried to give to you. you are everything to me, the song that no one sings, the unatainable. i dont know what to do when you make me sad. but i wont let this build up inside of me. i dont want to be this, but i wont let this build up inside of me.

So now i sit and wait letting it all do what i said i wouldnt, and it kills me. i wish it would kill me.