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wow.. this last month has been filled with alot of ups and downs. And it throws me because i am a person who likes a certain amount of consistancy. This month i have learned alot about myself, my character has really been put to the test. And i think i failed.. but thats okay because i learned. I admit, i like to be in contol... i think everyone knows that about me, but is it a bad thing?
I sometimes get carried away with something and i dont see the whole picture which makes me uneasy. I need to be more willing to step back and let other people take the reigns without critisism.
I think im over thinking this whole thing. Ive been to 2 different cemetaries in the same week, it has really forced me to re-evaluate my life. If i died tomorrow, what would i think about my life? what would other people really think? who would be the people taking it the hardest? how will i be remebered?
It inspires me,,, i dont know what it inspires me to do...
what i am supposed to do with my life? who am i supposed to do them with? will the things i do be significant? will i fail? will i succeed? there are so many variables to life that i had no yet thought about.
people tell you all ur life that every decision u make every day makes an impact on ur future... i didnt realize that until recently. Its like life is a highway and every decision u make is a differnet exit u get off at.. and it amazes me.
I look back on all my decisions in the past 2 years, and i wonder, if i would have taken different "extis" if i might still end up in the right place,
AND THEN IT HIT ME. even the wrong turns i took in life have put me in the exact place i want to be. so maybe the wrong choice was indeed the right one.
im just beginning to explore my mind and thoughts, but i feel overwhelmed.
I sometimes get carried away with something and i dont see the whole picture which makes me uneasy. I need to be more willing to step back and let other people take the reigns without critisism.
I think im over thinking this whole thing. Ive been to 2 different cemetaries in the same week, it has really forced me to re-evaluate my life. If i died tomorrow, what would i think about my life? what would other people really think? who would be the people taking it the hardest? how will i be remebered?
It inspires me,,, i dont know what it inspires me to do...
what i am supposed to do with my life? who am i supposed to do them with? will the things i do be significant? will i fail? will i succeed? there are so many variables to life that i had no yet thought about.
people tell you all ur life that every decision u make every day makes an impact on ur future... i didnt realize that until recently. Its like life is a highway and every decision u make is a differnet exit u get off at.. and it amazes me.
I look back on all my decisions in the past 2 years, and i wonder, if i would have taken different "extis" if i might still end up in the right place,
AND THEN IT HIT ME. even the wrong turns i took in life have put me in the exact place i want to be. so maybe the wrong choice was indeed the right one.
im just beginning to explore my mind and thoughts, but i feel overwhelmed.