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Well hiya 2days bin a weird day yesterday i had so much fun at the careers convention yeh i no it doesnt sound like fun but im actually reali intrested in lots of other things now eg a paramedic sounds like it could b fun an not cuz the percentage of women there is onli 30% i am not like that :-).
So my plans are once ive done my gcses im gonna try 4 like a part time job at barclays and then when i turn 17 or 18 i wanna go 2 mexico i think and work in an orphange there helping the blind children and children with downs syndrome it sounds like such a gd experience and if i still wanna b a psychiatrist then it would be worth while. To go there and stay there or a month its 1145 pounds which includes flight accomodation and food. Big difference between me an em is that i wud pay that amount and work 4 free em wud b expected 2 b paid 4 the work she did.
Ummmmm yeh careers convention was so much fun i asked so many questions its weird cuz i reali do not like talkin infront of people in class and stuff well in talbot house i used 2 love talkin in front of ppl mainly cuz i loved nearly everyone there as i was literally best mates wiv a lot of ppl and i loved it so much *sniffs*. Neway where was i oh yeh but i find it so easy 2 talk 2 adults who i dont no or ppl i dont no i just start talkin askin questions an voila.
Ive kinda gone off xanga a lot now cz so many ppl have xanga an im not sure which ppl look on my xanga so i mite accidently insult sumone wivout realising.
I have sum a bad issue over half the time i hate myself, i cannot stand who i am or the fact i can neva keep up wiv the work an always seem 2 b doin it late like 2day i did my RS cat in the mornin an at interval an finished it just in time but i dont particually care that much bout RS. If i hate myself so much an i am fed up wiv not doin work why am i tlkin 2 a computer wiv txt on the screen well mainly cuz it makes me feel a lot betta.
Cookery is cancelled 2moz which is gd i guess cuz i didnt wanna go neway yeh i no that wud mean i had 2 miss out on seein adam but i dont care bout him well yeh i think hes cute but hes not 2 gd wiv conversations yeh he helps me asks me if im ok carrys the big heavy pan 4 me an stuff like that but it means nothin an i no it doesnt because he wud neva go out wiv neone younger than him even if its 1-2 yrs younger, im totally off relationships 4 a while as it took me a lot of time 2 consider goin out wiv alex that one time yeh i no a day doesnt seem long but it kinda is 2 me an i said yes cuz i got on reali well wiv him i thought i new him but i didnt he wasnt the person i thought it seems that he didnt give a stuff bout animals he probably just said that stuff. So yeh the onli relationship which wasnt a disaster was the first one i eva had but i mucked that one up he had reali reali liked me 4 all the time at skool an same wiv me i had neva eva stopped likin him in talbot house i think i could of gone out wiv him again in yr6 but sam got there first i gave up on wishin that he wud believe me an not think it was sum joke.
Well one day i will meet someone unlikely or so i think. In actual fact i have already met sumone. He was the nicest bloke i haveeva lknown. he helped me so much wiv so many thins he was there 2 listen 2 me altho i neva did make him agree wiv me on the fact that gay ppl r so kwl.......Yeh he helped me when charlie was harassin me, when i was so distressed at skool an everythin wiv alex. I neva realised until recently how much i actually miss him, need 2 talk 2 him and most importanly want 2 b wiv him. Oh my gosh how soppy do i sound but this in a way is kinda a tragic love story an it does actually help u realise who u actually like an how much u liked them which is kinda kwl.
Neway ill shut up now :-)
So my plans are once ive done my gcses im gonna try 4 like a part time job at barclays and then when i turn 17 or 18 i wanna go 2 mexico i think and work in an orphange there helping the blind children and children with downs syndrome it sounds like such a gd experience and if i still wanna b a psychiatrist then it would be worth while. To go there and stay there or a month its 1145 pounds which includes flight accomodation and food. Big difference between me an em is that i wud pay that amount and work 4 free em wud b expected 2 b paid 4 the work she did.
Ummmmm yeh careers convention was so much fun i asked so many questions its weird cuz i reali do not like talkin infront of people in class and stuff well in talbot house i used 2 love talkin in front of ppl mainly cuz i loved nearly everyone there as i was literally best mates wiv a lot of ppl and i loved it so much *sniffs*. Neway where was i oh yeh but i find it so easy 2 talk 2 adults who i dont no or ppl i dont no i just start talkin askin questions an voila.
Ive kinda gone off xanga a lot now cz so many ppl have xanga an im not sure which ppl look on my xanga so i mite accidently insult sumone wivout realising.
I have sum a bad issue over half the time i hate myself, i cannot stand who i am or the fact i can neva keep up wiv the work an always seem 2 b doin it late like 2day i did my RS cat in the mornin an at interval an finished it just in time but i dont particually care that much bout RS. If i hate myself so much an i am fed up wiv not doin work why am i tlkin 2 a computer wiv txt on the screen well mainly cuz it makes me feel a lot betta.
Cookery is cancelled 2moz which is gd i guess cuz i didnt wanna go neway yeh i no that wud mean i had 2 miss out on seein adam but i dont care bout him well yeh i think hes cute but hes not 2 gd wiv conversations yeh he helps me asks me if im ok carrys the big heavy pan 4 me an stuff like that but it means nothin an i no it doesnt because he wud neva go out wiv neone younger than him even if its 1-2 yrs younger, im totally off relationships 4 a while as it took me a lot of time 2 consider goin out wiv alex that one time yeh i no a day doesnt seem long but it kinda is 2 me an i said yes cuz i got on reali well wiv him i thought i new him but i didnt he wasnt the person i thought it seems that he didnt give a stuff bout animals he probably just said that stuff. So yeh the onli relationship which wasnt a disaster was the first one i eva had but i mucked that one up he had reali reali liked me 4 all the time at skool an same wiv me i had neva eva stopped likin him in talbot house i think i could of gone out wiv him again in yr6 but sam got there first i gave up on wishin that he wud believe me an not think it was sum joke.
Well one day i will meet someone unlikely or so i think. In actual fact i have already met sumone. He was the nicest bloke i haveeva lknown. he helped me so much wiv so many thins he was there 2 listen 2 me altho i neva did make him agree wiv me on the fact that gay ppl r so kwl.......Yeh he helped me when charlie was harassin me, when i was so distressed at skool an everythin wiv alex. I neva realised until recently how much i actually miss him, need 2 talk 2 him and most importanly want 2 b wiv him. Oh my gosh how soppy do i sound but this in a way is kinda a tragic love story an it does actually help u realise who u actually like an how much u liked them which is kinda kwl.
Neway ill shut up now :-)