Holding On- 07
Title: Holding On -07
whizzk
Pairing: Hanchul
Genre: Drama, Romance , Slight Angst! , Slight Crack
Rating: PG -13
Disclaimer: I own nothing?
Notes: Inspirations from everywhere~~
Comments are gladly appreciated! :D
Apologize in advance if its not good, grammatical error, if its a fail or anything..
Summary: Heechul loves Siwon but is Siwon worth Heechul love? Is Hankyung any better
“You didn’t tell me”
That was the first thing Heechul heard when he opened his eyes. He fluttered his eyes and looked around him. The last thing he knew was that he was in the bathroom but how the hell did he end up in the hospital bed, he thought.
“You didn’t tell me” the familiar voice repeated, even serious this time.
Oh That thought Heechul, now he knew why he was in the room and why Hankyung was directing that question more like a statement to him .
“Why?”Hankyung asked.
“I..didn’t thought it would be serious…It had been just minor headache..But..It never got that serious..So I didn’t really care about it..It’s nothing” Heechul replied.
“What? So now, you’re a doctor? You knew what’s serious and what’s not? So you know when the damage could get worst? You could control it? It could get better if you ignore it? Minor headaches aren’t painful? So you don’t mind the permanent brain damage it’s gonna give you? Or you don really care about anything at all? Oh so are you just that strong …” Hankyung fire back in frustration.
“Stop Hankyung Stop!...You don’t understand!”Heechul shouted covering his ears and cutting Hankyung off.
“What do I don’t understand, Heechul? How could I when you didn’t even tell me? How can I understand when shut it all down in there! What don’t I mean anything to you? Not even as a friend that you can’t even tell me?!” Hankyung shouted back.
“Stop..Please..” Heechul cried.
He knew about the small brain clot in his brain, he knew it for months ever since he was sent to the hospital the last time Siwon hurt him, he knew but he didn’t care. The last time Siwon had hit his head, it had burst a vessel, the doctor told him and asked to get an operation; for that could give him a serious brain damaged as the brain clot could get worst. But he didn’t care less at that time, he was down and confused. And so he forgets about it, then the minor headaches came and go, so he didn’t really give a damn, as long he was still alive and breathing, it was alright, Heechul thought.
“Heechul..”Hankyung said as he covered his face and sighed.
“I’m sorry..” Hankyung apologized as he realized he had been shouting crazily like a mad man for the past few minutes.
“I’m sorry..” He repeated walking towards Heechul bed embracing Heechul.
“Get out…Please leave me alone..for a moment..”Heechul sobbed as he pushed Hangeng away.
“Hee..”
“Please ..Just go…”Heechul continued to sob as he cuts Hankyung off.
With that Hankyung left the room, he sighed yet again for the god knows how many time he sighed today.
In the room, Heechul cried harder. It wasn’t he fault he thought. He didn’t want to worry anyone , he was fine so what’s the big deal with it. He had made enough worries for Hankyung, isn’t he doing him a favor by not adding more to his list?, Heechul thought again. His mind was running with thoughts, he felt like his head was bursting. He couldn’t take it anymore. He threw a pillow to the door of and shouted in frustration. Why does it always happen to him?, he thought silently as he cry himself to sleep.
When Heechul woke up later, he felt a hand stroking his hair. He slowly lets his eyes emit to the lights, as he see the person who was stroking his hair.
“Hankyung…”he coughed out, his voice hoarse, tired from all the crying.
“Shh..I’m sorry..I shouldn’t have shouted at you.. I was scared that you won’t have much time left, I know I shouldn’t be thinking that way but..I just can’t help it..” I was just angry that you didn’t think of your health..And I was angry that it’s always you..You’re always bearing the pain..And I cant do anything..”Hankyung apologized as he continue stroking Heechul hair.
“Hankyung..It’s not like its your fault..Maybe it’s just my fate..”Heechul said softly as he tried to sit up.
“It’s not..You could change your fate..You could…have walked out of Siwon’s life earlier..You could have gone through for the operation earlier..You could…”Hankyung replied as he helped Heechul up.
“Hankyung..It’s not as easy it seems, the world doesn’t revolve around me the whole time. I have to think of other people too..“ Heechul explained as he stares at Hankyung, indicating him to just drop the whole thing.
“What about me? Am I not other people, Heechul? If you had think of other people, you could have walked of Siwon’s life and stop making your best friend worried and..”
“This is not about Siwon anymore. Could you stop bringing him into this for god sake, Hankyung?! This is about me and my fucking brain damage or whatever we are having issues with! There’s nothing we can do about Siwon anymore..So could you please just forget!?.”Heechul outraged as fist the bed .
Hankyung was shocked and was fall into silence, as he stares blankly at Heechul.
“You know what..I think we need a break..I mean this is getting nowhere..Not when you’re thinking of Siwon..and my past..And I think it’s the best for you and me..”Heechul voiced out again, breaking the silence, eyes brimming with tears. He then got off his bed and made a move towards the door.
“No..Heechul..I…”Hankyung got hold of Heechul wrist but Heechul brushed it off as tears starts to stream down his cheeks.
With that a stunned Hankyung was left in the room, as a loud thud of door could be heard.Heechul knew he shouldn’t be out from the room, or even be doing what he did to Hankyung. But he was so frustrated and angry that Hankyung could never stop about Siwon, he couldn’t held back what he said at the spur of the moment and he now seems to regret it.But Heechul thought agiain maybe that’s what they really need a break from each other to understand the whole situation better.Hankyung didn’t know if Heechul really meant what he said. He was upset alright, and guilty that he kept bringing Siwon up. But he was angry, that Siwon was the one who made everything Heechul was, his pain and the brain clot.
It was already late, past midnight and Heechul was still not back yet after the whole argument. Hankyung was starting to get worried and had been pacing about the room for sometime. He then tried searching around the hospital but failed he then took the initiative to tell the nurse about Heechul who was kind of missing,but he then found out that Heechul had asked for an early release. Hankyung heart felt it broke into many pieces, Heechul really meant what he said than, he thought. And that was the last of Heechul, Hankyung saw.
Six months have passed, Hankyung had gone through those rough hard months alone. Hankyung had waited for Heechul, he waited a day longing to hold on Heechul again. He regretted the whole six months of pain and agony of being alone, being far away from Heechul and worst not being able to be there for Heechul, when he needs him most.
One afternoon, while Hankyung was getting ready to go for his dance class, getting ready to open the door to his car,
“Hankyung..”
The voice, it sounded so familiar, it almost sounds so real to not believe who it was, it sounded like Heechul.
Hankyung turned to find out, it was really Heechul.
“Heechul!! I’m sorry..I ..I..”Hankyung said as he embraced Heechul.
“No..I’m the one who should be apologizing..I’m the one who left.. I’m sorry Hankyung..I’m sorry..”Heechul said in between sobs.
Hankyung pulled out the embraced to get a better look at Heechul. He was Heechul alright, the sharp nose, the white flawless skin, but there was something different about him. He was wearing a hat, Heechul never wears a hat.Hankyung then slowly took it off, to reveal a bald Heechul.
“Your..Hair.. What happened..You..Are you ok?! Oh my god..Heechul..What happened..”Hankyung stuttered as he was shocked. Heechul loved his hair, he would take long showers just for his precious hair. But, standing in front of him now was a bald Heechul.
“I did the op! I had to shave it bald for the op.That night I talked to the doctor, he said if I wanted a full recovery, it would be a 50/50 chance of surviving the operation..Apart of me didn’t want to take the risk but then I thought of how you were so serious about my health and everything..I pulled my courage together and took the risk..However the doctor said, Korea has no professional medical equipments for my op, so they had me sent overseas..Everything was hard, but I didn’t want to burden you anymore..You had enough with Siwon..And…”Heechul continued crying as Hankyung pulled him into another hug.
“You..Silly kid..” was all Hankyung could say as he rubbed the back of Heechul body.
“Everything is ok now…I’m alright..or so that was what the doctor said…At first I was reluctant to see you again..I was scared that you wouldn’t want to see me but I couldn’t..and everything was so confusing I just don know anymore..”Heechul sobbed.
“Heechul..Heechul..Shhh..Listen..Whatever happened to us in the past..Let’s forget it ever happened..Siwon..Your op..The six month..Let’s put it all behind us..We’ll start a fresh..We’ll start from square one all over again..This time, the last time..How about that?” Hankyung comforted Heechul.
“But…What..”
“No buts..We will make it through it together.. Everything..No more You No more I..It’s us…Heechul..”Hankyung said as he looked into Heechul eyes.
Heechul could only nod as he hold onto Hankyung warm hand.
“Promise me, that you’ll never leave again..Promise me that we will hold onto each other no matter what?”
Heechul nodded again looking at Hankyung.Hankyung pressed a finger onto Heechul’s cheek and wiped away the tears that was streaming down.
With that, Heechul knew everything’s going be fine, well it should right? That’s how fairy tale end right? Happy endings? But will he really get a happy ending, Heechul thought.
Few Years Later,
Heechul and Hankyung was taking a stroll at the park near their apartment and then they settled onto one of the bench.
“Do you remember this place, Heechul?” Hankyung asked
“Yes, of course..You were crazy proclaiming that the kids ball was your ball!”Heechul snorted giving Hankyung a smirked.
“Well,that wasn’t what I meant but you remember when we were eating ice creams before the whole ball incident occurred?”Hankyung rolled his eyes and replied.
“Ya..Why?”
“Well..I wanted to confess but I didn’t had the guts to really confess..But aish.forget it…”
“Yah..Hankyung…What’s wrong with you? Are you sick or something?!”
“Yes…I’m love sick for you! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA”Hankyung said as he ran off from the bench.
“Yah Hankyung! That was disgustingly sappy! Get your butt back here if not..Little Hannie’s may forget what’s for tonight!”Heechul ran after Hankyung.
“HEECHUL!!!! OKOK SORRRY…I was joking..”Hankyung ran back to Heechul and pleaded giving him the best puppy eyes he could.
“NO! Those puppy eyes aren’t working!”
“Fine, then I’ll let the whole neighborhood for a tour to your wig museum!”
“Oh no you did not just go there! Little Hannie is so not getting anything for tonight.” Heechul said with the best diva hand movement.
“Oh..Heechul…Come on..!!! I’ll do anything..I’m sorry” Hankyung pleaded again hugging onto Heechul.
“Fine! You could sleep outside for the night!” Heechul said.
“No!!! I’ll do anything just not the sofa! You wouldn‘t my back to hurt do you?” Hankyung nodded giving Heechul his puppy eyes again.
“Fine! I want your special fried rice but extra extra extra spicy for tonight so only I could have it to myself!!”Heechul exclaimed.
“Ok..OK.”Hankyung nodded.
“Let’s head home, and start cooking!”Hankyung said as he intertwined his fingers with Heechul.
Heechul smiled as he now realized his happy ending. Everyone can have happy endings, even me, he thought as he walked hand in hand with Hankyung back home that afternoon.
A/N: So sorry for the late update! But finally it's done! :D And thanks to all the reader who had been reading the fic from the start till the end..I appreciate it so much!! ! Thank you again!! <3<3<3<3<3
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