Away from home, yet so homey
This weekend has been one-of-a-kind.
Yesterday, Brad, Nathan, and I left from Tuscaloosa to come to Birmingham for the weekend. Brad and Nathan are playing "Fiddler on the Roof" at Briarwood Christian School, and we came down to spend the night at Brad's house. My time with Mrs. Whitfield (Mr. Whitfield is on the golf course in another state this weekend) has been so rewarding, and most of all, a blessing, and, more than anything, just what I needed. I gain so much from just being around this amazing woman. Words can't describe her. She is quickly becoming my second mom. Other than that, it's just been a weekend. Nothing more, nothing less. We're leaving in a little while for the play. We'll see how things go...
I interviewed for ASSCA yesterday (C&IS College Ambassadors), and opened up the email last night that would bring me the much anticipated news that I didn't make it this year. That's ok, though; I was more than honored just to receive an interview. Although I would like to know what else I could have done in my interview-- I thought it went well. I guess I just didn't need that now.
I wish I could spill everything that I am thinking here: ________________________________________, but I know I can't for the fear of hurting people's feelings or making others feel bad, which is NOT what I want to do.
Here's the deal: God is working within me, and He's handed me so many situations that I'm just not ready for. Maybe I am ready for them, but I don't think I have handled them the way He'd hoped I would. It's so hard being a woman. And as much as He has taught me about how to be this "woman" that He longs for me to be, I find it more and more difficult to even strive to be this woman. God has handed me this enormous task, and I feel like an ant standing at a giant mountain. I look up, and all I see is mountain. I don't think I have lost hope, or that I think that I can't climb this mountain. It's just that I know how difficult and pain-staking that that climb will be. Where do I go from here? I can go up, or I can leave. These two choices haunt me daily.
And sooner or later I will have to make a decision, just not today...not right now.
Yesterday, Brad, Nathan, and I left from Tuscaloosa to come to Birmingham for the weekend. Brad and Nathan are playing "Fiddler on the Roof" at Briarwood Christian School, and we came down to spend the night at Brad's house. My time with Mrs. Whitfield (Mr. Whitfield is on the golf course in another state this weekend) has been so rewarding, and most of all, a blessing, and, more than anything, just what I needed. I gain so much from just being around this amazing woman. Words can't describe her. She is quickly becoming my second mom. Other than that, it's just been a weekend. Nothing more, nothing less. We're leaving in a little while for the play. We'll see how things go...
I interviewed for ASSCA yesterday (C&IS College Ambassadors), and opened up the email last night that would bring me the much anticipated news that I didn't make it this year. That's ok, though; I was more than honored just to receive an interview. Although I would like to know what else I could have done in my interview-- I thought it went well. I guess I just didn't need that now.
I wish I could spill everything that I am thinking here: ________________________________________, but I know I can't for the fear of hurting people's feelings or making others feel bad, which is NOT what I want to do.
Here's the deal: God is working within me, and He's handed me so many situations that I'm just not ready for. Maybe I am ready for them, but I don't think I have handled them the way He'd hoped I would. It's so hard being a woman. And as much as He has taught me about how to be this "woman" that He longs for me to be, I find it more and more difficult to even strive to be this woman. God has handed me this enormous task, and I feel like an ant standing at a giant mountain. I look up, and all I see is mountain. I don't think I have lost hope, or that I think that I can't climb this mountain. It's just that I know how difficult and pain-staking that that climb will be. Where do I go from here? I can go up, or I can leave. These two choices haunt me daily.
And sooner or later I will have to make a decision, just not today...not right now.