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It is so strange how people once married for 25 years can act so uncomfortable around eachother...it was surreal hearing her voice echoing through my house, like she had always been there, like we had always been this perfect family, void of psychotic episodes, affairs, anger, drugs.. but all was interlaced with love...
to see her in her old bedroom, and them at the sink making tea brought me this unrecognizable feeling, comfort??sadness??resentment??happiness??
He treats her like she's nothing, a meer acquaintance, once a small part of his life, not his wife...
she called him darling, and he laughed and huffed "darling, that's a good one"... i feel so bad for her, i can imagine how hard it is for her to come back here for the 1st time in 3 years.. but she did leave, she did desert us for a better life, taking off an old shoe and putting on a new one, but taking the laces from the old ones to interweave the new with the old.
i didnt' think it woudl feel this way to see her here in this environment... despite all the crap i still love her, and my father.. i have to love them as two separate entities, not as my parents...
I can see why people say divorce is hard, this is different, but still relationships were severed..and hearts were broken
to see her in her old bedroom, and them at the sink making tea brought me this unrecognizable feeling, comfort??sadness??resentment??happiness??
He treats her like she's nothing, a meer acquaintance, once a small part of his life, not his wife...
she called him darling, and he laughed and huffed "darling, that's a good one"... i feel so bad for her, i can imagine how hard it is for her to come back here for the 1st time in 3 years.. but she did leave, she did desert us for a better life, taking off an old shoe and putting on a new one, but taking the laces from the old ones to interweave the new with the old.
i didnt' think it woudl feel this way to see her here in this environment... despite all the crap i still love her, and my father.. i have to love them as two separate entities, not as my parents...
I can see why people say divorce is hard, this is different, but still relationships were severed..and hearts were broken