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"You know what I like most about the stars? You look at them, at all of them up there, and you just know there's gotta be something more than..."
"Life?"
"There has to be"
"Are you scared?"
"Not of dying, really. It's more that I'm afraid of time. And not having enough of it. Time to figure out who I'm supposed to be...to find my place in the world before I have to leave it. I'm afraid of what I'll miss.
That reminds me of how Emily and a bunch of us layed in the middle of the road at Dale's party and looked at the stars. It's great to have a moment where it seems nothing bad can happen to you. And you're certain that while you're looking at them, there must really be a God, bc who could create something so powerful to look at that you can't seem to stop staring, and you don't want to quit watching them bc you know when you stop, reality will set in and uncertainties arrive again.
I dunno, that really touched me a lot. It's crazy how a 12 year old could be forced to grow up so fast and have to be afraid of time. We shouldn't have to be afraid of time and how much we have left. We should be able to enjoy ourselves and everyone in our lives without being afraid that something will happen. I like how Lena in Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants was afraid of love. She was afraid to let someone in. I envy her, just bc I want someone to love me and I don't have it. She wasn't looking for love, but she found it anyway. Woah, I'm jealous of a book character...I must really be crazy.
"Life?"
"There has to be"
"Are you scared?"
"Not of dying, really. It's more that I'm afraid of time. And not having enough of it. Time to figure out who I'm supposed to be...to find my place in the world before I have to leave it. I'm afraid of what I'll miss.
That reminds me of how Emily and a bunch of us layed in the middle of the road at Dale's party and looked at the stars. It's great to have a moment where it seems nothing bad can happen to you. And you're certain that while you're looking at them, there must really be a God, bc who could create something so powerful to look at that you can't seem to stop staring, and you don't want to quit watching them bc you know when you stop, reality will set in and uncertainties arrive again.
I dunno, that really touched me a lot. It's crazy how a 12 year old could be forced to grow up so fast and have to be afraid of time. We shouldn't have to be afraid of time and how much we have left. We should be able to enjoy ourselves and everyone in our lives without being afraid that something will happen. I like how Lena in Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants was afraid of love. She was afraid to let someone in. I envy her, just bc I want someone to love me and I don't have it. She wasn't looking for love, but she found it anyway. Woah, I'm jealous of a book character...I must really be crazy.