Lost
my life as i know it is now over! last nite had to have been the single worst night of my life! mike broke up w/ me! he felt to tied down and felt like he wasnt all the way in it and said that he just couldnt put his whole heart into it and he dint think that was fair to me... i believe that to an extent but i also think the recent break up of his older brother and girlfriend had something to do w/ it... i dunno all i know is now im like lost... i mean he was all i knew for over a year.. where do i go from here... and he said he still loves me more than anything and none of it was my fault he just wants to take a break for a while... he also said he still wants to hang out and stuff but i know its going to be akward... and i mean whats ok when we hang out.. do we hold hands .. can we cuddle.. can we kiss.. i mean whats ok anymore...and ... i dunno.. this is very hard for me i dont think i have ever loved someone so much... and i still remember when he told me ... if we ever broke up it would be cuz i broke up w/ him... guess that was a lie...uhhh im sorrie ive bored you w/ my sob story .. i just had to get it all out.. i was hoping it would make me feel better but.. yea it doesnt i still hurt.. l8er