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Last night My future ex wife was bugging me about going with her and I told her that I want to but I don't because of heather leaving me for nathan and now I just don't trust anybody. But the bad thing is is that I want to be with someone so I am not depressed all the time.
this up there is from anarchy...quite frankly i did stop buggin him bought going out but i still wish we would...he knows when i am mad happy sad u name it...i can't look at him and not feel happy...thats why i don't look him in the eyes..it hurts me alot to do so...cuz i want to be with him but he can't trust me...but he has no reason to trust me and i am nothing special so why care...thats right so from now on i am goin to attempt to portray that i don't want to date him...idk how cuz i really do but i will try....idk giving up on him is not my answer though i still care for him..i seem to understand him..i think we connect he just needs to let us...idk i am done babbling and i'm gonna go mope.
this up there is from anarchy...quite frankly i did stop buggin him bought going out but i still wish we would...he knows when i am mad happy sad u name it...i can't look at him and not feel happy...thats why i don't look him in the eyes..it hurts me alot to do so...cuz i want to be with him but he can't trust me...but he has no reason to trust me and i am nothing special so why care...thats right so from now on i am goin to attempt to portray that i don't want to date him...idk how cuz i really do but i will try....idk giving up on him is not my answer though i still care for him..i seem to understand him..i think we connect he just needs to let us...idk i am done babbling and i'm gonna go mope.