Monday
9 to 7...10 hours, but only the last 2 sucked.
I feel weirded out today. I keep thinking about cause & effect (or is it affect?) UGH! I've been backtracking through my life all day. What is I hadn't met this person. What is I hadn't said this. What if I hadn't listened to him/her. It's an absurd process. Most of the decisions I made around the age of 14 have set the coarse for what has come. "And you need instant belief. If you don't have instant belief, you've been hooked, you've been crooked, you've been lied to so many times that you're suspicious. And when the right thing comes along you don't believe it. When I'm up at the front door you're at the backdoor looking for 4-leaf-clovers. And when you find it you think somebody cut it & made a fool of you. Cause till the end you look for the truth" A girl I work with is going through rough stuff with her 14 yr old sister. WTF is with 13/14 yr olds. Did you have it rough when you were 13 or 14? If you don't understand what I'm talking about you should watch KIDS & Thirteen.
God damnit I wish XZIBIT would pimp my ride! There is some crap smeared on my back passenger side window. It looks like icecream. I'm not going to touch it. The rain was unsuccessful at washing it away. Gross. I'll make my nephew (Jacob, 11) wash it off. That's what little kids are for. Throwing away your trash & doing things you don't want to do, like taking Audrey outside to go to the bathroom, getting drinks from the fridge, delivering messages, sneaking up on uncles (my brothers) & hitting them with things...etc.
Eww! I can't listen to Death Cab for Cutie, it makes me want to slit my wrists! WHY IS MOST OF MY MUSIC SO GLOOMY! Damn it! I don't even like Tim Burton!
I want to live in a new place. Not that I don't have great friends here, but MAN I'd love to pick up & go somewhere I've never been. Where I don't know anyone. Where I don't know how to get around (uhhh nevermind). BUT!!!Moving out of my parents house scares me. I don't know if I have what it takes to support myself. I don't have the courage. I really don't have the support, but people move out on their own (really on their own own) all the time. GROW UP! Having a roomate would be nice, I guess. Emily has expressed interest in moving in together. I think that would be a bad idea, because I think we'd end up not hanging out. We haven't hung out very much lately, she met someone & I am very happy for her, but I miss her company. It gets lonely in Short Pump!
That's the most LiveJournal has gotten out of me so far.
I feel weirded out today. I keep thinking about cause & effect (or is it affect?) UGH! I've been backtracking through my life all day. What is I hadn't met this person. What is I hadn't said this. What if I hadn't listened to him/her. It's an absurd process. Most of the decisions I made around the age of 14 have set the coarse for what has come. "And you need instant belief. If you don't have instant belief, you've been hooked, you've been crooked, you've been lied to so many times that you're suspicious. And when the right thing comes along you don't believe it. When I'm up at the front door you're at the backdoor looking for 4-leaf-clovers. And when you find it you think somebody cut it & made a fool of you. Cause till the end you look for the truth" A girl I work with is going through rough stuff with her 14 yr old sister. WTF is with 13/14 yr olds. Did you have it rough when you were 13 or 14? If you don't understand what I'm talking about you should watch KIDS & Thirteen.
God damnit I wish XZIBIT would pimp my ride! There is some crap smeared on my back passenger side window. It looks like icecream. I'm not going to touch it. The rain was unsuccessful at washing it away. Gross. I'll make my nephew (Jacob, 11) wash it off. That's what little kids are for. Throwing away your trash & doing things you don't want to do, like taking Audrey outside to go to the bathroom, getting drinks from the fridge, delivering messages, sneaking up on uncles (my brothers) & hitting them with things...etc.
Eww! I can't listen to Death Cab for Cutie, it makes me want to slit my wrists! WHY IS MOST OF MY MUSIC SO GLOOMY! Damn it! I don't even like Tim Burton!
I want to live in a new place. Not that I don't have great friends here, but MAN I'd love to pick up & go somewhere I've never been. Where I don't know anyone. Where I don't know how to get around (uhhh nevermind). BUT!!!Moving out of my parents house scares me. I don't know if I have what it takes to support myself. I don't have the courage. I really don't have the support, but people move out on their own (really on their own own) all the time. GROW UP! Having a roomate would be nice, I guess. Emily has expressed interest in moving in together. I think that would be a bad idea, because I think we'd end up not hanging out. We haven't hung out very much lately, she met someone & I am very happy for her, but I miss her company. It gets lonely in Short Pump!
That's the most LiveJournal has gotten out of me so far.