I'm lost.
When does it happen? When do I "just know" what I want to be when I "grow up?" The school year is almost over and I have no ambition to continue my degree in education. I just googled the top in demand jobs, and I saw an awakening statistic. 1 out of 4 American citizen students are pursuing an education degree. I don't know why that's surprising. My brother, His girlfriend, 5 of my friends, and myself all are going or have graduated for the almost worthless degree. The only possibility is if I moved out of state, which I do plan to do, but I have no idea when. I don't want to graduate, still working at Borders and have my degree not even mean anything until I move. And when I do move, teachers don't get paid nearly enough to satisfy all the wants that I have for my life. Maybe thats it, maybe I just want too much. I'm considering taking a semester or year off, because I'm done with all my general requirements, and that last thing I can afford is to take classes I won't use or don't like, just to please my parents by staying in college. I want to get my life going. I'm about to be 20 years old and I feel stuck. Stuck in a city I want out of. Stuck in a low paying job that doesn't pay my bills. Stuck in a little room in my parents house with all their rules. It's depressing the hell out of me. I don't know what to do. I'm just waiting for that day, I'll wake up and just get slapped in the face with the realization of what I want to spend to rest of my life doing.
This life is so pathetic, I can barely take it anymore.
This life is so pathetic, I can barely take it anymore.