A Moth Who Got Himself Too Close To the Light.

Aug 20, 2005 04:35


Endless energy lies in me for those types of exertions. I really wish I had something to say--I must write, though, for I have to listen to myself and hear the nothing that I have to say reverberate back at me in all its hollowness. A lack of solitude proves so stifling to the type of thought required for writing, that it seems I am in the ( Read more... )

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Life is a bucket of chicken changejourenv August 22 2005, 07:17:22 UTC
Ay Garrett, I just signed on to this thing for the first time in 2 or 3 days. Garrett my old big lipped nigger Garrett, we are helpless, hopeless, trying to find that meaning of life, trying to find the words we want to say for the occasions we fear to experience (does that make sense? well it makes sense in my little world). I always think that I come home after being surrounded by people, and I sit, I sit alone and think: does my life really have much meaning? I can never find the damn answer...I guess the answer goes back to the outside and the inside...I personally find meaning in life whenever I talk to you about how great sad songs make me feel alive, and how stupid ranchero songs are funny and how i feel that life is fucking crazy, I feel that life has meaning when I get up in the morning go to class and I learn something new and something tha I enjoy. I dont know, I never think or believe what people like that say "men only become interesting when ...bla bla bla bullshit bitter bitch-angry negroes!...People are interesting when they have something to share, men women and watermelons, I guess I am just tired of people always interacting for the sake of convenience, girls wanting to date an older man cause the fucker can buy them things, or whatever that is.
I just think that being around people you enjoy is good enough, having someone you love for who they are is what counts, not because they have a phd, or a bmw, or whatever material possession...and you and I know that there are so many "older" men that really dont have a fucking clue... (I guess l like to pick certain subjects and bitch about them ) . By the way too, you are not being left behind, I always think like that too, not having a home, not having a place of comfort, I am not gonna say or give advice to that (although I probably did already without noticing, if i did just ignore it, it's probably bad anyway, haha)I just want to tell you that you are not the only one who feels like that, I am sure more than just a couple of us feel like that, and think that no one we know feels like that, while they really do

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