Like Mark Eitzel said, "I've been so lucky."

[whitey4sale]

Immediately I shut up--criticism can really stop you. Listening to good criticism of yourself makes all the difference. Only if it is good, though. Good meaning that it sounds like the words you wanted to tell yourself but couldn't because of your moronic neurosis and self-proclamations that for no good reason you do not want to violate.

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It's ok Garrett I am back

[changejourenv]

Man, you and death, but I understand cause I have been thinking about it too(been thinking about way too many things lately).
I think that you have to just live life, one day at a time, focusing on following steps ttowards whatever long term goals you mught have for example: Getting college degree, reading tons of great boooks, Meeting and toching king Chili (ok that one i made up ) <<<---I think that's what life is about, enjoying, seeign the good without forcing a positive bullshit answer...you know better how much I hate people who go around preeching the world is happy and pure..cause it is not, it can be a giant turd! but it can be good when you dont think about certain things, but what do I know (NOTHING NIGGA< niGGA NO MO'E!!!!!)
I am glad there is someone who makes you so happy, it's the best thing in the world, it's the true "magic" in life...Just enjoy the people you love, the good times and remember them, learn from them and dont thinki about whether they are gonna be there tomorrow cause you can predict that... at least I cant( but if you have a magic recepie feel free to share it) , anyway, good stuff, good friends, good music, good hobbies, good loving is what good life has to offer us..focus on it, forget about death which is everywhere (less than life) and yet not so close, cause niggas is young and they got much to experience

cant spell damn computer, damn hands, damn brain!

[changejourenv]

ok sorry, I just read that thing, so many errrors, it makes me want to weep for days, or eat a watermelon

To prevent typos: eat watermelon WHILE you type.

[whitey4sale]

Aw christ, I thought that my post was less about death than most of my other ones. I do not see thoughts about death going away, though, as like the crazy Frenchman Montaigne I also believe that "death is easiest for those who during their lives have given it most thought, as though always to be prepared for its imminence." But I agree with you. I have heard people telling me to accept death many times and I think it's finally coming to that point, or at least to the point where I can focus more on my secular, wordily pursuits without feeling held back by not having enough life to accomplish the things I want to accomplish. It seems that my life will always be somewhat incomplete--there will always be things I will have wanted to do--but if I can at least focus on all the things you listed (especially touching the king) it seems that if I pick the correct activities I will feel good about life, and feel accomplished like after a good workout or after reading a good novel or after discovering a new song and learning how to play it on guitar or finding a perfect girlfriend out of nowhere or making silly ass calls with the negros and gossiping about douche bag encased brains or finding a job that makes you feel good about your capabilities. But, life blows unless you have a watermelon so let's eat!