i hateee thissss
i hate that the year is almost over. and i hate that i had to miss another day of school today. i went in and then had an accidenntttt and the nurse sent me home. and then i had killer cramps so i took my medicine which makes me dizzy and naucious, but it makes the cramps go away, and i went to sleep.
i havent had the chance to talk to my friends about this stuff because it's a serious conversation and they're always too busy with something.
but i hate the fact that im graduating so soon. i don't want to leave school. i'm gonna miss it soosososo much.
i know that i sound like a loser but this is how i feel. and if you dont like it or if youre going to make fun of me then you can just suck my left tit.
i think the reason why im going to miss school so much, is because i love everything about it. I love the smell, and i love the kids, and i love the dirty slutty freshman... i get along with everyone in the school. the teachers the students, the principals, the hall monitors, the custodians. i talk to everyone. and theyve all become a part of my life. they all know my name and ive had serious conversations with about all of them. theyre all a part of me, and advice they've given me has helped shape who i am. How am i supposed to not be uspet about leaving them?
it's crazy because ever since sixth grade, i've known that no matter what, come september, i'd be surrounded by the same people. It would be the same drama and the same cliques, and i loved everything about it.
I knew it was gonna be the same in september.
Now i know that in september all the people that i care about the most are going to be gone at school and my life is going to be completely different.
it's weird...
i dont look at my class just like as " the class of '06'
they're so much more to me.
we're all together.... we've all been together. and it's like one big family. there's not many fights or cliques anymore. we all get along for the most part. we all speak. I look at them as part of me.. that's it.. that's MY class. and i'm part of theirs.
how are we supposed to let that go? How are we not supposed to miss it... miss each other?
how is this supposed to be easy for anyone?
i hate that i think about this so much. i hate that i'm crying typing about it right now... but it's how i feel.
I love change sometimes, and other times i loathe it.. This is not something i'm looking forward to.
there's people in school that i love to death, but i'm pretty sure i'm not going to see after graduation. and that scares me that so many people that i've known for so long are going to be leaving me so quickly. They're gonna be gone and after a while, we're gonna forget we all existed. We're gonna forget each other's faces, and how much we helped each other get through everything.
We're gonna forget how many times we walked into the bathroom to see someone crying, and how we helped them. Or how they did it for us.
Another thing is.... graduation doesn't feel right.. I still feel like Justin is just on vacation and he's going to be coming back and walking with us. It feels like a huge piece of the puzzle is missing and everything needs to be put on hold until it's found. It will never be found, and we can't stop graduation. It's coming at us, full force. And there's nothing we can do about.
I just wish things wouldnt change.
I hope no one forgets me because i won't forget them.
Graduation is going to be one of the saddest days of my life. I'm not looking forward to it.
I can't believe that at project graduation, that's going to be the last time the majority of the class will be together as a whole. That's it.. It's over.
I need to stop thinking about this right now. :(
i havent had the chance to talk to my friends about this stuff because it's a serious conversation and they're always too busy with something.
but i hate the fact that im graduating so soon. i don't want to leave school. i'm gonna miss it soosososo much.
i know that i sound like a loser but this is how i feel. and if you dont like it or if youre going to make fun of me then you can just suck my left tit.
i think the reason why im going to miss school so much, is because i love everything about it. I love the smell, and i love the kids, and i love the dirty slutty freshman... i get along with everyone in the school. the teachers the students, the principals, the hall monitors, the custodians. i talk to everyone. and theyve all become a part of my life. they all know my name and ive had serious conversations with about all of them. theyre all a part of me, and advice they've given me has helped shape who i am. How am i supposed to not be uspet about leaving them?
it's crazy because ever since sixth grade, i've known that no matter what, come september, i'd be surrounded by the same people. It would be the same drama and the same cliques, and i loved everything about it.
I knew it was gonna be the same in september.
Now i know that in september all the people that i care about the most are going to be gone at school and my life is going to be completely different.
it's weird...
i dont look at my class just like as " the class of '06'
they're so much more to me.
we're all together.... we've all been together. and it's like one big family. there's not many fights or cliques anymore. we all get along for the most part. we all speak. I look at them as part of me.. that's it.. that's MY class. and i'm part of theirs.
how are we supposed to let that go? How are we not supposed to miss it... miss each other?
how is this supposed to be easy for anyone?
i hate that i think about this so much. i hate that i'm crying typing about it right now... but it's how i feel.
I love change sometimes, and other times i loathe it.. This is not something i'm looking forward to.
there's people in school that i love to death, but i'm pretty sure i'm not going to see after graduation. and that scares me that so many people that i've known for so long are going to be leaving me so quickly. They're gonna be gone and after a while, we're gonna forget we all existed. We're gonna forget each other's faces, and how much we helped each other get through everything.
We're gonna forget how many times we walked into the bathroom to see someone crying, and how we helped them. Or how they did it for us.
Another thing is.... graduation doesn't feel right.. I still feel like Justin is just on vacation and he's going to be coming back and walking with us. It feels like a huge piece of the puzzle is missing and everything needs to be put on hold until it's found. It will never be found, and we can't stop graduation. It's coming at us, full force. And there's nothing we can do about.
I just wish things wouldnt change.
I hope no one forgets me because i won't forget them.
Graduation is going to be one of the saddest days of my life. I'm not looking forward to it.
I can't believe that at project graduation, that's going to be the last time the majority of the class will be together as a whole. That's it.. It's over.
I need to stop thinking about this right now. :(