meeehhh

[whitexrose]

ugh can't sleep and it sucks
so i was going through some old papers and stuff
and i found some really old shit that i wrote

so broken
so mesmerized by pain
i've become everything
i once hated.
but i look up and see that
the girl with the cigarette smile
the girl that shakes it all off &
pretends the pain is gone
with a laugh and a shrug of the shoulders
is really just waiting for him to come back
- nov 11th '04

strengthen your lungs baby
take a deep breath
there's nothing to lose
once you have nothing left
calm down babe
the rain is falling and we're soaking wet
give me one last drag of that cigarette

yeah, heartbreaks a bitch babe
but it can heal
and the things that dont heal
just leave scars
which are reminders of what made us stronger
and smarter too, they teach us
who to keep our distance from
- december 17th 2004

i want myself back
what i was before i knew you
i cant even remember what i was like
i dont like what i've turned into
i wonder what it's like to be happy
of course, i wouldn't know
it;s been so long
can you tell ? does it show ?
- october 21st 2004

SO DEPRESSING
if only i was a sweet hoodslut when i wrote those ! ehhhh?

YO I HATE INSOMNIA !