venting
Its been 2 years since i wrote in this haha.Starting over. no boy. no apt. no job...annnnnddd a drinking problem.Everyone is having sex with everyone and some of it is pretty illegal. I can honestly say if i met some of my friends now instead of growing up with them i would think they are huge huge douche bags. Ive been hanging out with some new people but Ive already given too many second chances. I'm way to nice. pssh.
I want to kill all the scumbags in Dover so i can go places without an anxiety attack being scared for my life haha. I feel so weak having to avoid places to see him. What ever happened to friends sticking up for you and being extra nice to girls.It would be nice if i had guy friends that stuck up for me and then beat people up instead of acting like acquaintances and smoking pot all the time. I hate pot.
I feel like a huge huge loser but its my fault for not job hunting and drinking until 7 am. I'm never home I'm always drinking and crashing places. thank god no one sketchy and hurray for good friends. I need to get out of this mess. I have a baby beer gut now. I'm glad i gained weight haha.
I need to gain more weight
Get my ged
Get a job
Not want beer or shake when i wake up
Not smoke because its gross
meet good people
stop thinking about how I'm going to get my next beer
I need to get my funnel from jason's house.
I want to get wasted with sigourney weaver and break faces
How long have you been breathing?
21 years
Have you cried today at all?
Last time i cried was my bday weekend.
Do you want to be in a relationship?
Fuck that. unless i meet Mr.epic
Do you actually believe in perfection?
No way.
Would you rather it be sunny or rainy?
Sunny minus the chance of me getting a tan
Have you been to New York City?
No. I will when i visit maize in jersey. Rockabilly bar haha.
Who is the last person you seen that it was hard for you to see?
Douche bag and Alex.
Last time you did laundry?
Forever ago.good thing i own a ton of clothes.
Check your my space everyday?
no
Do you fight with your parents all the time?
no.I'm never home
Just went out with a girl/guy only because you felt bad?
Nooo...said i would date them yeah. not a good idea.I hate hurting peoples feelings though :(
Who were the last person/people you layed in bed with?
Steve.I sleep over guys houses all the time hahahha.None are sketchy I'm so lucky.I still want pepper spray tho. i should prob get some girlfriends too.
Where did you sleep last night?
my bed
Do you want kids?
Yes please just don't ruin my body or vagina.
Do you have any expensive jewelry?
Gross
Where is your phone?
In front of me
Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to?
99.9% of my bffls are guys
Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?
I don't know. I'm bitter.
Do you have your wisdom teeth?
yeah my dentist dropped me, i missed too many appointments to party.
When is your next road trip?
Tomorrow to work at some show in mass. Hopefully NJ soon.
What are you listening to?
Isis
Would rain actually stop you from going somewhere or ruin your plans?
no. this summer i was drunk and got in my underwear and hula hoop with a a gay guy in the rain. wicked stupid not like me at all haha.
Ever been in a wedding?
nope.I want to run over everyone who is in love.
Myspace or Facebook?
myspace.
What woke you up this morning?
alarm. went home. texts
If you took a drug test would you pass it?
yeah i hate drugs. I haven't even dated anyone that does drugs besides Eric but i was 12.
Is tomorrow going to be a good day?
I'm going to see ling!
Did you kiss or hug anyone today?
drunk cheek kiss
Who was the last person you rode in a car with?
uhhhh bobby.
What was your first thought this morning?
I'm not fucking driving to Manchester right now I'm so hungover and tired and sick.
Do long distance relationships work?
i was with Andrew for 4 months when he moved to Cali.wouldn't do it again.
Would you rather talk on the phone or chat in IM?
pick up the fucking phone and call me. I don't mind texting because i just got it but seriously.
Do you listen to music everyday?
yeah
What was the last thing you ate?
Pizza , baked potato , rolo , tortellini , chef boyardee , 3 English muffins , and chips.
Are you a fast typer?
sure
What are you doing tonight?
I will say sleep but i will go with drinking.
Is anything bothering you?
Everything. I have to write my thoughts down to catch up
Do you miss someone?
I did but fuck it. I'm way too nice and don't deserve that. I'm better then that.
Are you in a bad mood?
I'm sick and it hurts to cough. I just want meat and potatoes.
Are you talking to anyone while doing this?
testing Brandon
Are you a jealous person?
No I'm human.if you're not a little jealous somethings wrong.
What are you allergic to?
Nothing.
How many hours of sleep do you need to function?
i use to make sure i got at least 6 when i had a job...but now i drink everyday and can manage off a few hours.
When was the last time you slept on the floor?
I don't know. all my friends have beds. my bed is on the floor.
Has anyone told you a secret this week?
yeah
Have you told someone else that secret?
no
How many siblings do you have?
2
Who is in the house with you?
mom dad Lil sis 3 cats and guinea piggy
What are you thinking about right now?
I need to get my life back together.And i miss a few friends :( i'm worried about some people and their drinking , I'm worried about some people and their smoking and dealing and living situation. i wish i could fix everything for everyone.
Last text message in your outbox?
let me know when your in Portsmouth i miss you
Do you like anyone?
Katy perry. i like like her. so hott.
I want to kill all the scumbags in Dover so i can go places without an anxiety attack being scared for my life haha. I feel so weak having to avoid places to see him. What ever happened to friends sticking up for you and being extra nice to girls.It would be nice if i had guy friends that stuck up for me and then beat people up instead of acting like acquaintances and smoking pot all the time. I hate pot.
I feel like a huge huge loser but its my fault for not job hunting and drinking until 7 am. I'm never home I'm always drinking and crashing places. thank god no one sketchy and hurray for good friends. I need to get out of this mess. I have a baby beer gut now. I'm glad i gained weight haha.
I need to gain more weight
Get my ged
Get a job
Not want beer or shake when i wake up
Not smoke because its gross
meet good people
stop thinking about how I'm going to get my next beer
I need to get my funnel from jason's house.
I want to get wasted with sigourney weaver and break faces
How long have you been breathing?
21 years
Have you cried today at all?
Last time i cried was my bday weekend.
Do you want to be in a relationship?
Fuck that. unless i meet Mr.epic
Do you actually believe in perfection?
No way.
Would you rather it be sunny or rainy?
Sunny minus the chance of me getting a tan
Have you been to New York City?
No. I will when i visit maize in jersey. Rockabilly bar haha.
Who is the last person you seen that it was hard for you to see?
Douche bag and Alex.
Last time you did laundry?
Forever ago.good thing i own a ton of clothes.
Check your my space everyday?
no
Do you fight with your parents all the time?
no.I'm never home
Just went out with a girl/guy only because you felt bad?
Nooo...said i would date them yeah. not a good idea.I hate hurting peoples feelings though :(
Who were the last person/people you layed in bed with?
Steve.I sleep over guys houses all the time hahahha.None are sketchy I'm so lucky.I still want pepper spray tho. i should prob get some girlfriends too.
Where did you sleep last night?
my bed
Do you want kids?
Yes please just don't ruin my body or vagina.
Do you have any expensive jewelry?
Gross
Where is your phone?
In front of me
Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to?
99.9% of my bffls are guys
Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?
I don't know. I'm bitter.
Do you have your wisdom teeth?
yeah my dentist dropped me, i missed too many appointments to party.
When is your next road trip?
Tomorrow to work at some show in mass. Hopefully NJ soon.
What are you listening to?
Isis
Would rain actually stop you from going somewhere or ruin your plans?
no. this summer i was drunk and got in my underwear and hula hoop with a a gay guy in the rain. wicked stupid not like me at all haha.
Ever been in a wedding?
nope.I want to run over everyone who is in love.
Myspace or Facebook?
myspace.
What woke you up this morning?
alarm. went home. texts
If you took a drug test would you pass it?
yeah i hate drugs. I haven't even dated anyone that does drugs besides Eric but i was 12.
Is tomorrow going to be a good day?
I'm going to see ling!
Did you kiss or hug anyone today?
drunk cheek kiss
Who was the last person you rode in a car with?
uhhhh bobby.
What was your first thought this morning?
I'm not fucking driving to Manchester right now I'm so hungover and tired and sick.
Do long distance relationships work?
i was with Andrew for 4 months when he moved to Cali.wouldn't do it again.
Would you rather talk on the phone or chat in IM?
pick up the fucking phone and call me. I don't mind texting because i just got it but seriously.
Do you listen to music everyday?
yeah
What was the last thing you ate?
Pizza , baked potato , rolo , tortellini , chef boyardee , 3 English muffins , and chips.
Are you a fast typer?
sure
What are you doing tonight?
I will say sleep but i will go with drinking.
Is anything bothering you?
Everything. I have to write my thoughts down to catch up
Do you miss someone?
I did but fuck it. I'm way too nice and don't deserve that. I'm better then that.
Are you in a bad mood?
I'm sick and it hurts to cough. I just want meat and potatoes.
Are you talking to anyone while doing this?
testing Brandon
Are you a jealous person?
No I'm human.if you're not a little jealous somethings wrong.
What are you allergic to?
Nothing.
How many hours of sleep do you need to function?
i use to make sure i got at least 6 when i had a job...but now i drink everyday and can manage off a few hours.
When was the last time you slept on the floor?
I don't know. all my friends have beds. my bed is on the floor.
Has anyone told you a secret this week?
yeah
Have you told someone else that secret?
no
How many siblings do you have?
2
Who is in the house with you?
mom dad Lil sis 3 cats and guinea piggy
What are you thinking about right now?
I need to get my life back together.And i miss a few friends :( i'm worried about some people and their drinking , I'm worried about some people and their smoking and dealing and living situation. i wish i could fix everything for everyone.
Last text message in your outbox?
let me know when your in Portsmouth i miss you
Do you like anyone?
Katy perry. i like like her. so hott.