so i...
made the decision for you
and i though it would be easy but i realize it's just as hard.
sigh.
when will this be over? when will this be done? i'm tired and ready to move on.
this is just one day of many. and this day will come and pass i know but how will i feel tomorrow or the day after that and after that.
this week is one of the hardest for me, but i've almost made it though. so hopefully i'll be better soon.
it's my birthday in a week and i'm not even that excited about it to be honest. i'm turning 21 it's supposed to be exciting. but i'm not.
and then it's your birthday. i think i just need this month to be over b/c theres so much that happened this month a year ago that i'd just like to forget to be honest.
i try to pretend that things never happened or that last year didn't exist, but truth be told they did and it does. and yes--i'm still hurting.
so i'm going to go to work today and try and be chipper and sweet. and after i'll come back to an empty house and drink my bottle of wine alone.
and that's the way its supposed to be i guess...
and i though it would be easy but i realize it's just as hard.
sigh.
when will this be over? when will this be done? i'm tired and ready to move on.
this is just one day of many. and this day will come and pass i know but how will i feel tomorrow or the day after that and after that.
this week is one of the hardest for me, but i've almost made it though. so hopefully i'll be better soon.
it's my birthday in a week and i'm not even that excited about it to be honest. i'm turning 21 it's supposed to be exciting. but i'm not.
and then it's your birthday. i think i just need this month to be over b/c theres so much that happened this month a year ago that i'd just like to forget to be honest.
i try to pretend that things never happened or that last year didn't exist, but truth be told they did and it does. and yes--i'm still hurting.
so i'm going to go to work today and try and be chipper and sweet. and after i'll come back to an empty house and drink my bottle of wine alone.
and that's the way its supposed to be i guess...