A Year On..

[whitevr]

I've stopped writing stuff down on either of my blogs some time ago because I had felt bitter, and did not want to think about the things that I have been feeling, much less share it with everyone else. I've constantly had this feeling of no one being able to understand any of the things that I'm going through, and I didn't want to be bothered any more by people who to me, did not know what they were talking about.

Obviously, its pretty destructive behavior. Over that time, I've become selfish and focused mostly, if not solely, on myself. I realize that the negativity had made me a black hole to the people around me, and to the most important person to me. I'd been sucking everyone's energy out just to make myself feel less miserable.

I've always known I was stubborn, and that I wouldn't compromise for anything, but being reminded again of just how stubborn I am, well, it makes everything change. Perspective, direction, outlook, plans. Anyway, the bottomline of all this is that I've realized a lot of things over the last couple of days, and I know that I have a load of stuff to fix... both within myself and the people around me. I just hope that I'd be given the chance to...

And to you, thanks. You have been, for half of my life, the one to teach me the most important things about life and love and myself.