Walking the Floor
So I got up relatively early and will soon take some pain meds to help me go to sleep relatively early, but I have a bad feeling that I will have just a little trouble sleeping. Why? I have no idea. I can't really be worried about tomorrow, because it is super routine, and even if they have to open me up, the risk of something going wrong is nearly non-existent.
I think I'm just turning into a homo. I keep looking at my son and thinking: "what if?" God. Who the fuck is going to take care of my kid if something happens to me? I've GOT to start taking better care of myself. I mean, in this year of silence I've taken nearly every non-hallucinogenic drug there is, gone and done some not-so-safe things in the name of nothing, and hung out with people who viewed my safety just below their own... and even that wasn't very high.
Is it too late to start taking care of myself? I know so little about health and the human body that I fear I may have already trimmed years off my life that are unretrievable. Anyone? Wow, I wish someone were to here to slap me and tell me to stop being such a pussy.
I think I'm just turning into a homo. I keep looking at my son and thinking: "what if?" God. Who the fuck is going to take care of my kid if something happens to me? I've GOT to start taking better care of myself. I mean, in this year of silence I've taken nearly every non-hallucinogenic drug there is, gone and done some not-so-safe things in the name of nothing, and hung out with people who viewed my safety just below their own... and even that wasn't very high.
Is it too late to start taking care of myself? I know so little about health and the human body that I fear I may have already trimmed years off my life that are unretrievable. Anyone? Wow, I wish someone were to here to slap me and tell me to stop being such a pussy.