my first private journal entry, now no more:
Monday, December 20th, 2004
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6:07 pm
hm. i can't believe i was this ignorant and stupid. i was actually contemplating on whether or not to **** ***, and in the end it was someone else who i was interested in. it was someone totally different...
ugh
and your hair is now dyed black and looks exactly like this kid at my school. whom i see every single day...
i'm sorry about everything though. i really am.
but you know, i think i'm the one who's more hurt than you are. sucks that it had to end for this reason, but it was on my part this time. it could have been worse.
do you think we could be friends?
i can't see it.
this letter is filled with mixed emotions all over, i know. but i also know, or hope, that you understand me though as well.
this whole letter sucks, sorry. but everything happened so fast... and it's still going on.
current mood: crushed
it's amazing how my feelings can change completely in 1 fucking night. all this used to consume every thought of mine everyday but now it's all different, started last night, on new years. ive now made two new years resolution that i'm going to try and stick to.
<3christina
happy new year
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6:07 pm
hm. i can't believe i was this ignorant and stupid. i was actually contemplating on whether or not to **** ***, and in the end it was someone else who i was interested in. it was someone totally different...
ugh
and your hair is now dyed black and looks exactly like this kid at my school. whom i see every single day...
i'm sorry about everything though. i really am.
but you know, i think i'm the one who's more hurt than you are. sucks that it had to end for this reason, but it was on my part this time. it could have been worse.
do you think we could be friends?
i can't see it.
this letter is filled with mixed emotions all over, i know. but i also know, or hope, that you understand me though as well.
this whole letter sucks, sorry. but everything happened so fast... and it's still going on.
current mood: crushed
it's amazing how my feelings can change completely in 1 fucking night. all this used to consume every thought of mine everyday but now it's all different, started last night, on new years. ive now made two new years resolution that i'm going to try and stick to.
<3christina
happy new year