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I keep running into girls from high school and walk away thinking "I hope she gets hit in the face with a bag of dog shit." For the past few years, I've been pretty conscientious about how much I gossip. I once said something awful about a really nice person... word got around, I really hurt her feelings, and I felt like a real asshole. I definitely learned my lesson. I still gossip, but try really hard not to. Anyway, every time I encounter someone from my high school, it seems they only have horrible and mean things to say about EVERYONE, including lots of people whom I think are decent human beings and have done nothing malicious or worthy of such mean gossip. It by no means makes me feel like a saint, because it's only a reminder than I still say nasty things about people sometimes. But seriously, it shouldn't be that difficult to say at least one positive thing about another person in a conversation. The point is, there are some people I am very glad to not have in my life anymore because that sort of negativity can really rub off on you. I definitely think I've become a more positive person since I left high school because I'm not surrounded by gossipy, nasty girls all the time.
I hate trying to make high school seem like some profound experience full of life's beautiful revelations and lessons, but having closed that chapter of my life, I feel like I've changed a lot for the better. Sometimes I wonder if I had gone back and repeated those four years if I would have done anything different. I've decided that keeping my social life and hobbies based far far away from my school was probably the best set of decisions I'd ever made. Though I feel like I got along with people and didn't show my misery when I was actually at school, that place really brought me down and if I were involved with many of those people. Certainly dating someone 10 years older than me in high school made it that much more unbearable.. I wanted to get out of that place and be independent like the rest of my friends/significant other.
Blah blah blah this all seems really silly and usually when I write half an entry about what I'm actually thinking I wind up erasing it all because I feel foolish. But here it is: My thoughts for today!
I hate trying to make high school seem like some profound experience full of life's beautiful revelations and lessons, but having closed that chapter of my life, I feel like I've changed a lot for the better. Sometimes I wonder if I had gone back and repeated those four years if I would have done anything different. I've decided that keeping my social life and hobbies based far far away from my school was probably the best set of decisions I'd ever made. Though I feel like I got along with people and didn't show my misery when I was actually at school, that place really brought me down and if I were involved with many of those people. Certainly dating someone 10 years older than me in high school made it that much more unbearable.. I wanted to get out of that place and be independent like the rest of my friends/significant other.
Blah blah blah this all seems really silly and usually when I write half an entry about what I'm actually thinking I wind up erasing it all because I feel foolish. But here it is: My thoughts for today!