So the story goes
So. Talking to the Ex. Things not going so well but I'm being calm and trying. We'll see what happens. Just told her that I want to show her things have changed and that I'm different. But not just tell her, cause thats BS, but show her. She basically said Meh. See I didn't know that I was getting another chance. I thought, and well everyone told me, that she really didn't ever see me again. So I was like Ok nothing I can do about that. So I started hanging out with and old friend, that she doesn't to care for, and made plans to go to San Diego to meet another old friend of mine who has always had kind of a thing for me and basically straight out told me that she wanted me. Which I thought was cool. I mean it's always nice to hear that someone wants you after there is a break up. Makes you feel better.
Well this was a mistake that I will never make again. I told 3 people that story that night. And well I was talking to the Ex and seeing what was going on tell her I was working on things and just basically giving it one more shot right. And so I tell her I miss her and she says Yeah miss me enough to go fuck another chick. And I was like OOOOHHH NO. So I tried to explain that I wasn't going up there to have sex with her I was really just going up there because I haven't seen her in a long time but I don't know what's going to happen. What this means is that one of the 3 people opened their mouth after the party. And I know it wasn't one of them. So knowing that 2 people are not going to know anything like that again. If I need advice or feel nuts sure I'll come talk to them because they're cool and they're my friends. But when it comes to Ex stuff my lips are sealed completely. Sorry guys thats just the way it has to be in order to protect my own interests. Thats not saying that I won't be honest with the Ex its just saying that she's going to hear it from me if she wants to know and not a 3rd party. And thats for the best anyway. Info always gets fucked up when it gets passed along. And this fucked me up with her because it put me in a hole. So I had to try and explain things and work around it.
So I sent her a message today telling her that I think a big problem is that we just weren't on the same page and I was listening to much to other people. So hopefully that will start to put things back on the right track and get her to consider things again. And if not oh well. That sucks but there is nothing that I could do about it. But I hope it works. I've got a lot to work on anyway I just hope I can work on things with her as well. I'm willing to do whatever it takes to try and make her happy and get things going again but down the right path. Not the fucked up rocky path we were going on before.
And the last thing is that to all my friends and such that I've kinda put through hell because I was all fucked up in the head and crazy and such. I'm sorry. I'm fixing all that. And hopefully that will never happen again.
Hope this finds you all well.
Well this was a mistake that I will never make again. I told 3 people that story that night. And well I was talking to the Ex and seeing what was going on tell her I was working on things and just basically giving it one more shot right. And so I tell her I miss her and she says Yeah miss me enough to go fuck another chick. And I was like OOOOHHH NO. So I tried to explain that I wasn't going up there to have sex with her I was really just going up there because I haven't seen her in a long time but I don't know what's going to happen. What this means is that one of the 3 people opened their mouth after the party. And I know it wasn't one of them. So knowing that 2 people are not going to know anything like that again. If I need advice or feel nuts sure I'll come talk to them because they're cool and they're my friends. But when it comes to Ex stuff my lips are sealed completely. Sorry guys thats just the way it has to be in order to protect my own interests. Thats not saying that I won't be honest with the Ex its just saying that she's going to hear it from me if she wants to know and not a 3rd party. And thats for the best anyway. Info always gets fucked up when it gets passed along. And this fucked me up with her because it put me in a hole. So I had to try and explain things and work around it.
So I sent her a message today telling her that I think a big problem is that we just weren't on the same page and I was listening to much to other people. So hopefully that will start to put things back on the right track and get her to consider things again. And if not oh well. That sucks but there is nothing that I could do about it. But I hope it works. I've got a lot to work on anyway I just hope I can work on things with her as well. I'm willing to do whatever it takes to try and make her happy and get things going again but down the right path. Not the fucked up rocky path we were going on before.
And the last thing is that to all my friends and such that I've kinda put through hell because I was all fucked up in the head and crazy and such. I'm sorry. I'm fixing all that. And hopefully that will never happen again.
Hope this finds you all well.