I've changed o.O (figuratively :P)
Since coming back from Spain I've realized that I've changed and not in a small way. For a really long time I was always worrying about what I would do, or say, and what everyone would think of me for those actions. I constantly used to undermine myself making a decision about something I wanted and then freaking out worrying about whether it was ok or not. I used to let people walk all over me for these kind of reasons, worrying about what would happen if I stood up for myself.
Well, after a LOT of internal clashing I finally came to the conclusion that its alright if I want something, or don't want to be treated poorly by rude people. I think this stemmed from the fact that I finally completely accepted myself for being everything I am and finding that I love myself for it. This has also helped me come to terms with the situations at my parent's house when I visit.
I'm proud of who I am and how far I've come, but I'm also a little worried about all this newfound "independence". However, I'm worried it will affect my being a babyfur. Since I've come to terms with all this stuff I feel I've lost my favorite aspect of being one, that is, dependence. I like feeling weak and the feeling of someone taking care of me because I'm not able to do it myself. But, I HAVE learned how to take care of myself, I feel almost completely. Is a drastic 180 for me and now I worry if I'll be able to go back enough, to really feel like I can indulge in what I love about being a babyfur.
Well, after a LOT of internal clashing I finally came to the conclusion that its alright if I want something, or don't want to be treated poorly by rude people. I think this stemmed from the fact that I finally completely accepted myself for being everything I am and finding that I love myself for it. This has also helped me come to terms with the situations at my parent's house when I visit.
I'm proud of who I am and how far I've come, but I'm also a little worried about all this newfound "independence". However, I'm worried it will affect my being a babyfur. Since I've come to terms with all this stuff I feel I've lost my favorite aspect of being one, that is, dependence. I like feeling weak and the feeling of someone taking care of me because I'm not able to do it myself. But, I HAVE learned how to take care of myself, I feel almost completely. Is a drastic 180 for me and now I worry if I'll be able to go back enough, to really feel like I can indulge in what I love about being a babyfur.