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ok so certain whiney individuals have informed me that i should really update my journal... so here goes ... i do love all of the deep thinking and all, but sometimes i wonder if people are trying too hard to be the deepest thinker with the most depressing life... i would truly rather be happy and as cheerful as possible... yes its true i do get pissed off ALOT! because of all of the dumbasses in this world and my idiotic choices to give them the time of day... but for the most part, im ready to stretch outside of that cycle... As most of you know i dont like very many girls... cause theyre really bitchy and obsessive and worrysome... and they flat out overanalyze everything ... not to mention that they know nothing about the guys they overlyconcern themselves with ... yeah so thats why i dont like many girls, but ive recently realized that that is what ive become ... FOR NOTHING ... I hate hippocrytes yet that is hyppicritical of me... So all in all ive chosen to become more aware of what i am doing right now in this moment... and geezlouise it took an annoying "little brother" (hes not literally my lil bro) to show me who i have become ... so to those of you i have let down, im sorry... I used to think that caring was a good thing, but not everyone wants to be cared about... so sometimes i just gotta lay off... and now ive decided that i will care about others only when they seek me out to be cared about, otherwise, why worry myself over nothing when it is only bringing me down... may seem a little self centered ... (cause it is),but its not totally self centered so im alright... I do love you guys, and im thankful for the ways that youve molded me, but i think that for a while i wanna stretch my own damn legs and stop trying to make everyone else happy with who i am... so in advance, im sorry if i go through some strange phases through the next months, and im sorry if i begin to get on your nerves, but chances are it wont last ... sothere you have it ... my minimal steps towards a happier and emotionally healthier lifestyle ... I dont wanna be emo ... i wanna be go lucky- even if you think its immature, im not doin it for you