Being alone just doesn't cut it.
Everyone's had that fear of being alone at least once in their lifetime.
Well, for me...
That's my second most fear.
(Death is first)
I fear that I might never get married, that I might not have kids, that my friends and family may grow distant from me.
It scares the hell out of me every single day.
It just occurred to me that when Rocky broke up with me, I felt that I'm not needed anymore, and I need to be needed!
The need of the feeling of being wanted by someone not related or friends with me is what drove me to not want to live, to just be a shut-in or a hermit.
No friends, no family. Just me.
And that's no way to exist.
But why is that I continue to feel this way?
Why am I NEEDING that contact?
Maybe it's just paranoia.
(Sounds like paranoia more than anything.)
And I don't think I'll ever get over it, which sucks.
Being scared all the time is not fun.
And now I'm babbling.
I'll update on this later.
Well, for me...
That's my second most fear.
(Death is first)
I fear that I might never get married, that I might not have kids, that my friends and family may grow distant from me.
It scares the hell out of me every single day.
It just occurred to me that when Rocky broke up with me, I felt that I'm not needed anymore, and I need to be needed!
The need of the feeling of being wanted by someone not related or friends with me is what drove me to not want to live, to just be a shut-in or a hermit.
No friends, no family. Just me.
And that's no way to exist.
But why is that I continue to feel this way?
Why am I NEEDING that contact?
Maybe it's just paranoia.
(Sounds like paranoia more than anything.)
And I don't think I'll ever get over it, which sucks.
Being scared all the time is not fun.
And now I'm babbling.
I'll update on this later.