whom or what I am updating for...
I have no idea. Theres just something telling me that I do have to update. You know, people don't really know the real you. Only because they are unable to comprehend what could be going on behind closed doors. Im not complaining about my life, but just the generalization of society. I mean, we judge and judge and when we say we aren't judging, we're lying. So all in all we as humans are in denial. I was thinking about this past year, well, HAVE been thinking about it and as much as I want to say I have no regrets, I do. SO many that I just want to take back and forget about. It's only now that the past is really picking at me.So I think maybe I shouldn't worry about it, I mean my life and problems aren't as bad as someone else's in the world. But we are all open to our own problems right? Thats what albert told me. It's good to know. Reassuring. So I have judged and lied and sinned if you will, all to get rid of problems, and now the sinning and the lying and the judging are all over...but the problems still exist. I create problems in my head. There are actual problems in my life. There are problems with other people which remind me of my problems which then creates a whole new problem. Basically... I'm a teenager...greeeat. There are sooo many things that I just want to get out and, I guess, confess to everyone but if I were to, it just wouldn't be the same. So many feelings. I remember last year during the end of the year I was talking to either Jamie or Jessica or Brian or maybe even all 3 and I was saying how I need to develop a backbone and a voice in this world and that high school was the place to do it, but I was soo dependable on an older figure that I didn't think I was capable of doing so. Well, I did find my backbone and my voice, sort of. It's just I found it and thought it was right, and it ended up hurting me and my surroundings. It's still hurting me. I remember wanting to jusut grow up and get out of this place, but I rushed myself too fast and ended up falling horribly. There is so much that I dont know but am sooo eager to want to know already.
anyways, my mom is ok... her work is getting worst... or better, I don't know.
My dad is ok... bills are killing him, but thats a give in. Wait I forgot, I'm white remember... I MUST be rich, especially since my dad is a vet... I have nothing to worry about.... ugh... anyways...
My brother is ok, him and i have come closer once again. We didnt talk long the other night, but enough to where I felt better.
Caitlin still thinks im this whore... she even said so last night when i was "asleep". CAITLIN: If you're going to talk about someone, make sure that they are actually asleep! god...
ALbert and I are doing great. Well, I think, I can't speak for him. We all hung out at Peters last night. I had fun. He takes care of me, and I try and take care of him. I confide in him and trust what he tells me. In fact he tells me the right things. Or sometimes, he doesn't have to tell me anything, it's just sort of there... sigh.
My parents wedding is coming up...greeeeeat. it's going to be March 14th at 5:30 at Temple Mt. Sinai 4408 N. Stanton. Dress is casual. I'm hoping yall can come. Caitlin and I will have everyone there with us in a different room than my parents, b/c they want to play their bagpipes ugh... Oh yes! And if you are coming, my parents say that if you play an instrument to bring it since they will have all of theirs. Ok, well I g2g finish h/w.
Love,
Corinne
p.s.
state is thursday and friday... o man!
anyways, my mom is ok... her work is getting worst... or better, I don't know.
My dad is ok... bills are killing him, but thats a give in. Wait I forgot, I'm white remember... I MUST be rich, especially since my dad is a vet... I have nothing to worry about.... ugh... anyways...
My brother is ok, him and i have come closer once again. We didnt talk long the other night, but enough to where I felt better.
Caitlin still thinks im this whore... she even said so last night when i was "asleep". CAITLIN: If you're going to talk about someone, make sure that they are actually asleep! god...
ALbert and I are doing great. Well, I think, I can't speak for him. We all hung out at Peters last night. I had fun. He takes care of me, and I try and take care of him. I confide in him and trust what he tells me. In fact he tells me the right things. Or sometimes, he doesn't have to tell me anything, it's just sort of there... sigh.
My parents wedding is coming up...greeeeeat. it's going to be March 14th at 5:30 at Temple Mt. Sinai 4408 N. Stanton. Dress is casual. I'm hoping yall can come. Caitlin and I will have everyone there with us in a different room than my parents, b/c they want to play their bagpipes ugh... Oh yes! And if you are coming, my parents say that if you play an instrument to bring it since they will have all of theirs. Ok, well I g2g finish h/w.
Love,
Corinne
p.s.
state is thursday and friday... o man!