Santas Got a Brand New Bag...

[whitejew]

Well, I have to say Merry Christmas to everyone, I hope all is well and warm with you and your families. I also hope everyone got what they wished for. My Christmas was interesting. Well it was really Christmas Eve. We went over to my grandmas house at 3 and didn't get home until like 8 i think. Anyways, I know I say that I hate going to my family get togethers but this one was actually not that bad... My uncle was so happy he was bouncing off the walls with joy. Which is something I have honestly never seen in my life. I actually saw my uncle talk to my mom and tell her how he felt. That was a big deal, a really big deal, not just for me but for my mom. And my grandpa actually told my mom that he was proud of her and that he loved her, which, sadly to say, is another thing I have never seen or heard in my life. Everyone was just happy, and thats what the holidays are truly about. It helped me forget about everything that has gone on this past year. Or the past couple of years. But my uncle, I mean people don't understand. My uncles are not exactly the happiest and most educated people on the face of the planet. My uncle Jerry was just...a new man, I still can't believe it. And I know my mom felt good to hear her little brother tell her how much he loves everyone and how great he feels. this christmas I guess in a way changed my perspective on my family. A lot of things have changed this break. In fact my change is starting to take toll. Then my brother and I drove home and that was a drive home that made the night. I never really thought of my brother as being one of my best friends, and I certainly never thought he would think of me as one of his best friends. We talked about a lot of things about this past year and about our lives and we came closer to each other. My brother and I already have a really close relationship, but after this ride I dunno... this Christmas has just been really positive. J.P. invited me over the other day. I had fun, we made cookies and hung out in the snow, and Kris and his girlfriend came over... It's not the same hanging out with your ex and his new love. I guess I was really irritated that night with things because I ended up going home a little while after they arrived. Nothing against them. or J.P. I have heard from close friends of mine that I have changed, and not for the better. I see what they mean. I need a change to get rid of all the bad things that happened this past year so I can start fresh for the new year. This drama that I keep feeding myself into is going to end. I know that doesn't seem possible but I have come to realize that drama only follows you if you allow it to and I think sub-consciously I wanted it to follow me. I dunno. I guess Im changing a lot of things, from appearance to attitude to priorities. I want to be able to make my own choices and not have them shock or make people mad. A new year is coming up and I don't want it to start off on a bad foot. Anyways, today was interesting. It was a good Christmas I guess along with another trip to the hospital. Everyone is fine I think. And then Kylie and I hung out, she gave me a kick ass sweat shirt, and I couldnt giver her the gift I got her because well...its not in my hands. Speaking of gifts I have to give everyone gifts. I should have just given them out during Chanukkah. Oh well, Paul and I are gonna go get Chinese food. Hope everyone is safe and sound and having a beautiful Christmas.
Love,
Corinne
p.s.
it's official im layering my hair