Deeper

[whitechocolate6]

the deeper you cut,
the more you scar.
i have led you down a path.
one where you took advantage of me
with every step you took.
i let you break me,
i let you hit me,
i let you use me,
i let you hurt me,.
maybe i wanted it.
after a lifetime of abuse,
i want and expect nothing more and nothing less.
maybe i deserved it.
the misfortune of being myself,
made me deserving of the pain.
maybe i needed something to belive in.
but the god i prayed to,
the saint i trusted,
the savior i loved,
the angel i let inside of me,
was truly a demon,
a virus, a diesease, a plague.
one which crawls beneath my skin.
i can feel you course within my veins,
the same veins i tear open in anguish.
i can feel you leaving me,
abandoning me in a cold world
of isolation, confusion and despair
i am empty and feel nothing as you lay your hands upon me once more
but you can't hurt a body that has no pulse.
the deeper you cut,
the more you scar.