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this week has def. been a low
ive been sad all week. Not discontent or just upset..but Sad...
waking up really unhappy.
i dunno it's all petty bullshit and doesnt mean anything, but i did get this journal to vent so if you dont want to hear a "pity party" then stop reading.
All started at XTones. i feel like the reject of the class. Class starts and no1 says hi or even initiats conversation with me really. granted, a couple people do, but i mean people i used to concider wonderful friends and the people i could lean on for support, it feels like they arent there anymore now that ive been happier and better. Just watching them dance, i was thinking about how close we used to be and how different it is in the hall. I try to say Hi to them at all and they walk right past. I'm not saying i want EVERY ONE to be my friend...people are entitled to not like me, but when people you love dearly dont even acknowledge that you are alive...it hurts. that's all.
im not making much sense.
im just at a low point right now. I want to go back to therapy so bad, but i can't afford to go myself unless my parents pay, and by the time they make hte appointment and make it happen, im ok again...they just don't give a fuck.
I'm lonely. I hate valentines day. enough said....
it's probably just this week. Everything's on my mind...i'll get over it
ive been sad all week. Not discontent or just upset..but Sad...
waking up really unhappy.
i dunno it's all petty bullshit and doesnt mean anything, but i did get this journal to vent so if you dont want to hear a "pity party" then stop reading.
All started at XTones. i feel like the reject of the class. Class starts and no1 says hi or even initiats conversation with me really. granted, a couple people do, but i mean people i used to concider wonderful friends and the people i could lean on for support, it feels like they arent there anymore now that ive been happier and better. Just watching them dance, i was thinking about how close we used to be and how different it is in the hall. I try to say Hi to them at all and they walk right past. I'm not saying i want EVERY ONE to be my friend...people are entitled to not like me, but when people you love dearly dont even acknowledge that you are alive...it hurts. that's all.
im not making much sense.
im just at a low point right now. I want to go back to therapy so bad, but i can't afford to go myself unless my parents pay, and by the time they make hte appointment and make it happen, im ok again...they just don't give a fuck.
I'm lonely. I hate valentines day. enough said....
it's probably just this week. Everything's on my mind...i'll get over it