Dreams.
had a dream last night that awoke me and made me pick up my pen and my pad and write. This is a journal entry that took place last night...
Time is of the essence and of course it waits for no man, but i couldn't help but wonder why ive let so much of it pass me by. I had a dream where i held in my hand a stopwatch and through this watch i was able to see into my past, present, and future. I seemed to be going into a timewarp traveling and seeing things i had not even thought about in years. My youth is still in effect but as the dream progressed it made me realize how short and impatient i once was. This timewarp had revealed the very flaws and demons i had shrugged off and didn't want to face. The dream kept on and i suddenly saw myself in my present form and not the same person i was in the past tense.
I lie here now awake fully aware of how grown up i have become. Not yet a man by far, but i have left the youth in that dream that was brought to my attention. We often think about why we were brought into this earth and this question is something that i have not chased but have put into the back of my mind. Ive Decided to invest more time into myself, and i have wasted alot of my days and nights breaking my back for people who i wanted to please. But i cannot keep wasting my life trying to live in other's peoples shadows and expectations. These last few months have been hard for me in the sense that i have to say goodbye to alot of people that i wanted so bad to be in my life.
Its been an uphill battle to try be truly happy and there is still gonna be a couple of sleepless nights ahead of me. Im letting it all go and i will always be an emotional person at heart, But there is something about my personality now that has changed my whole prespective on everything. Im thankful for the wisdom that my Savior has blessed me with. Obstacles in my life dont seem to be as big as they once did and its becoming a little bit less of struggle to go to sleep at night. Living on my own has taught me the value of having people around and the bonds that can never be broken.
I believe that the dream meant much more than just a time shift in my youth. I think that there is something much deeper than meets the eye. The last part of my dream i had envisoned a beautiful women with a feather in her hair. To my left and to my right i could see the Women who had done me wrong and in a moment they vanished. My attention was brought back to the Woman with the feather in her hair. She reached her hand out to me and i could see the sun setting in the background as she was walking to me to my present future. Im not too sure how many omens ive had in my life but this dream seemed to speak to me like no other.
This Woman is out there, i dont know where she is and i can honestly say that she is real and im starting to search for her. Over mountains and endless oceans i will search for her because she holds the keys to my future and the feeling of content that i have sought after all these years. With all this being said, i look forward to the days ahead because i know she is out there somewhere.
The emotional barriers ive had to overcome have really made think how much of a emotional rollercoaster life has been so far. But it has helped me to understand hwo your true friends are and the Women who will hold you down for the rest of your life.
Time is of the essence and of course it waits for no man, but i couldn't help but wonder why ive let so much of it pass me by. I had a dream where i held in my hand a stopwatch and through this watch i was able to see into my past, present, and future. I seemed to be going into a timewarp traveling and seeing things i had not even thought about in years. My youth is still in effect but as the dream progressed it made me realize how short and impatient i once was. This timewarp had revealed the very flaws and demons i had shrugged off and didn't want to face. The dream kept on and i suddenly saw myself in my present form and not the same person i was in the past tense.
I lie here now awake fully aware of how grown up i have become. Not yet a man by far, but i have left the youth in that dream that was brought to my attention. We often think about why we were brought into this earth and this question is something that i have not chased but have put into the back of my mind. Ive Decided to invest more time into myself, and i have wasted alot of my days and nights breaking my back for people who i wanted to please. But i cannot keep wasting my life trying to live in other's peoples shadows and expectations. These last few months have been hard for me in the sense that i have to say goodbye to alot of people that i wanted so bad to be in my life.
Its been an uphill battle to try be truly happy and there is still gonna be a couple of sleepless nights ahead of me. Im letting it all go and i will always be an emotional person at heart, But there is something about my personality now that has changed my whole prespective on everything. Im thankful for the wisdom that my Savior has blessed me with. Obstacles in my life dont seem to be as big as they once did and its becoming a little bit less of struggle to go to sleep at night. Living on my own has taught me the value of having people around and the bonds that can never be broken.
I believe that the dream meant much more than just a time shift in my youth. I think that there is something much deeper than meets the eye. The last part of my dream i had envisoned a beautiful women with a feather in her hair. To my left and to my right i could see the Women who had done me wrong and in a moment they vanished. My attention was brought back to the Woman with the feather in her hair. She reached her hand out to me and i could see the sun setting in the background as she was walking to me to my present future. Im not too sure how many omens ive had in my life but this dream seemed to speak to me like no other.
This Woman is out there, i dont know where she is and i can honestly say that she is real and im starting to search for her. Over mountains and endless oceans i will search for her because she holds the keys to my future and the feeling of content that i have sought after all these years. With all this being said, i look forward to the days ahead because i know she is out there somewhere.
The emotional barriers ive had to overcome have really made think how much of a emotional rollercoaster life has been so far. But it has helped me to understand hwo your true friends are and the Women who will hold you down for the rest of your life.