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I just read the next chapter in Crimson Love. ;sniffle;
"You can't learn to cope effectively with distress unless you grow up around people who are coping effectively with distress." That might help a few people. :D Annd..
"The forms and severity of self-injury can vary, although the most commonly seen behavior is cutting, burning, and head-banging. Other forms of self-injurious behavior include carving, biting, scratching, branding, bruising, hitting, marking, burning/abrasions, and picking/pulling skin and hair. Studies have suggested that when people who self-injure get emotionally overwhelmed, an act of self-harm brings their levels of psychological and physiological tension and arousal back to a bearable baseline level almost immediately. In other words, they feel a strong uncomfortable emotion, don't know how to handle it (indeed, often do not have a name for it), and know that hurting themselves will reduce the emotional discomfort extremely quickly. They may still feel bad (or not), but they don't have that panicky jittery trapped feeling; it's a calm bad feeling."
O______________O Omgsh.. I never realized I 'self-mutilate' myself.. But it's so true! ;_; Whenever I feel overwhelmed/depressed/uber-angry/any emotion to the extreme I bite my lip and pick at hangnails till they bleed, or at calluses on the bottom of my toes.. o_________o;; ;licks lip; gah! What is wrong with me! Why did I read that stupid chapter! I felt fine before.. What could be happening that I'm stressed? Distance from Drew? I'm not angery at my mom or anything, I was the other day. Maybe switching from mom's to dad's house so much. I do hate that.. But what can you do? :/ Well... I guess I'll be fine. But man.. my lip is bloody.. I chewed on it.. grahh.. I miss Drew.. :[
Okay. Calm dowwwn. I'm fine. D: Oh yeah, here's the link to the story. http://www.fanfiction.net/s/2216484/21/