blow up the parlimentry and protest the government

[whiteandblack]

I don’t understand why I am expected to be moderate among humyn? I don’t understand why I am constantly ridiculed by people that should be most supportive. my outbreaks of affection or in their words "attention/ bipolar" are merely another piece of the puzzle I am. In order for me to be real I must deal with my difficult puzzle instead of faking an entire life by cheating and getting the answers to my problems from some superior knowledge such as the upside down answers on a cereal box. the only pain I have felt in weeks is over something unimportant, and I have found inspiration in nothing since the end of January. I have lost all that I have gained including any self respect I was clinching on to. I honestly just feel lost and as much as I want someone to find me I know I must guide myself through whatever fucking wood I have ran away too in my mind. my mind is really starting to scare me because i don’t have any control of it anymore.

I have not felt a genuine positive charge in my body in weeks. and I don’t like the feeling of desperation.