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Conformity is something that I have never wanted to accept before, but tonight and after hearing certain phrases it started to become more adaptable in an unusually positive way. After hitting rock bottom three strikes I’m out, I finally realized that I can’t wait for this physiological occurrence to randomly come upon me and make life suddenly bearable. I have to make a tangible effort to change the things that lead me to where I am now. I know that my past with my dad and even my mom has allot to do with the decisions I have made recently but at the same time I wont ever move on unless I change the pattern that I’m on now. Essentially I’m a deconstructive person because I think it’s what I need in order to be strong… but that’s just a fucking masochistic excuse for not wanting to change because the pain is easier than the realization and problem solving.
Thank you
Brett
Whitney
Stassy
Josh
Tim
Allen
emma
You are probably the most caring real individuals I will and have ever met and every bit of success you gain in life is completely and totally deserved. You are all amazing people that have such eccentric personalities and have taught me so much about love that I would be completely numb to without you. Thank you for never letting up on me… in an awkward way you’re my family that I never had the chance to experience and you are in large part the reason for my success and give me the will to always move forward.
And thank you
Schuyler
Max
And my father
You three taught me wisdom in people that is impossible to achieve through any textbook. You have shown me the arrogance in human beings and proved to me that some people just love themselves so much that they will never care about any individual completely. You three have taught me a priceless concept that I hope I never forget.
I am still bewildered at the reality that all three of you succeeded in teaching me this weekend.
In conclusion, learn from your mistakes, if anything in this world matters, it’s the substantial effort to learn though experiences instead of numbing yourself for the next group of negative events. I shiver with the thought of always being this way. its finally time for change. a real change not a commercial one.
Thank you
Brett
Whitney
Stassy
Josh
Tim
Allen
emma
You are probably the most caring real individuals I will and have ever met and every bit of success you gain in life is completely and totally deserved. You are all amazing people that have such eccentric personalities and have taught me so much about love that I would be completely numb to without you. Thank you for never letting up on me… in an awkward way you’re my family that I never had the chance to experience and you are in large part the reason for my success and give me the will to always move forward.
And thank you
Schuyler
Max
And my father
You three taught me wisdom in people that is impossible to achieve through any textbook. You have shown me the arrogance in human beings and proved to me that some people just love themselves so much that they will never care about any individual completely. You three have taught me a priceless concept that I hope I never forget.
I am still bewildered at the reality that all three of you succeeded in teaching me this weekend.
In conclusion, learn from your mistakes, if anything in this world matters, it’s the substantial effort to learn though experiences instead of numbing yourself for the next group of negative events. I shiver with the thought of always being this way. its finally time for change. a real change not a commercial one.