the first and last

[white_stellar]

Something that came onto my mind recently...

My heart
as cold and black as an obsidian stone
The stone, now which has a thin crack along side of it
My sadness
leaking into my mind
tears finally forming in my eyes
My regret
for the things I should have done
all gone now in a whisp of smoke

The little sadness I feel
Why? The memory of you only now haunts me....
after so long you reminded me
that you were here, by my side
Through good times and the bad
As I was at yours

I hope now that you are happy, and your soul is free
My first and last tears for you
this was the closure I needed
my gift to You

My friend... passed away and I didn't even cry
Today when I was talking about her with another friend was the first time since her death that my eyes watered
It's been about 4 or 5 months since she died
I'm just afraid now, that when the people I'm close to and care about pass away, that I'll remain emotionless
I really miss her, I really really do.

RIP
you warmed my heart and soul
you will be forever missed and remembered