Catchin Up....
~*Gunna work backwards here i s'pose.*~
Ricky's home... tomorrow he's packin up n leavin for school the next day. After that I guess we might be able to talk more.. maybe... well he'll have his new computer on all the time n he'll actually be allowed to use his celly again. I jus got done talkin to him for a while online... at first we didn't talk much but then cute things were said n all was well. I love him so much. *this usually goes at the bottom of my LJ entries but oh well* apparently he's gunna buy 2 computer cam things.... one for each of us, so we can see each other. lol it'll be a year till I get that tho... n supposedly I'm gettin my song first. :) don't believe a word of it but the effort to make me happy is cute.
Earlier today I went over to Jason's... we got slurpees n then watched Kill Bill Vol.2, after that we went over to Wendy's... saw like 6 people from our school *most in our grade* who work there... including TAMMY! haha... we ate then went back to Jason's, played a couple rounds of Mario Kart, walked down the street n met Toft... Back to Jason's, talked for about 15 minutes.. then Mom called n said I was to walk over to Denny's so she could take me home. So I left... waited at Denny's for a lil bit n then got driven home. Oh wait... some guy named Carlos who's one of my mom's customers saw me walkin with her in the parkin lot n apparently he's a real nice guy.. seeing as how he gave my mom 20 bucks to give to me for no reason.. he jus likes to give money to kids lol. Fine by me.
I was sposed ta chill with Heidi tonight after she got done babysitting but that didn't happen.. was too late I guess. but yea I might chill with her tomorrow.. with Anthony?... But then again, I might chill with Jensen... but then again, I might chill with Jenelle lol.
Oh n Alex called me... from California. It was tight to hear his voice again I haven't talked to him in forever. We're hopefully gunna kick it next week after he comes back. Shall be tight.
Let's see here.. today's Thursday, yesterday was Wednesday... so Tuesday! Tuesday sometime Jenelle rode the bus over, we didn't have any plans but then decided to chill with Matt n Kyle n Toft again. We got ready, They came to pick us up *finally* after we were informed that Wang would be joining in the fun. Wasn't to happy to hear this since he hates me n I know he n Toft have like... somethin between them. Well it'd make for an interesting night right? So we go n get the Aaron's at the bottom of Wang's street, Toft ends up in the trunk on the way up to Jenelle's, the White Stallion overheats when we park so we spend like a half hour or something there on Jenelle's street pouring water on the engine so we can live through the night... Toft gets back in the trunk n we all head over to Roland's. Matt runs n gets him n Toft transfers to Roland's truck *cuz apparently he crashed his Camaro the other day*. We go to Woodinville... Top Foods. We see David n Frew n Steve n a whole bunch ppl we donno... I walk over to David jus to say hey real fast... then find the others. We ran around in the parkin lot for a while n then drove to Kenmore to the docks at Lake Boom Park *right?*... a couple of the guys got in the water, Matt pissed on a duck's face lol. We left there n went to Kyle's so he *and Matt?* could change into dry clothes. After Kyle's we all came to my house... but Roland got in a wee bitta trouble so he had to go home... so then Kyle n Wang drove n got Toft, when they got back me Jenelle n Matt drove to McDonald's.... the Bothell one wasn't open tho so we had ta go to the other one... it's open all night now n it was 1am so yea. Got back to the house with our food, ate, finished watching American Beauty with the rest of the guys, then put in Bad Boys 2. By the time that was half over half the people were asleep.... LOL so me n Jenelle went n got my hot pink nail polish n painted matt's nails while he was sleepin.. then put gold on top of it haha. He woke up n tried to stay awake so we couldn't do anything else to him... n all the rest of the guys were tryin to stay awake for that reason too. Toft ended up on the porch cuz jenelle yelled at him, Matt fell asleep again so me n Jenelle attacked with makeup but he woke up n so we chased him around the house with it. I got blue mascara in his hair. Me Wang n Kyle didn't sleep more than about 10 minutes each the whole night. Kyle antiqued Toft twice... *threw flour in his face*... poor kid. LOL it was funny tho. By the time it was gettin light out everyone knew that no one in the house would be sleepin anymore... we put in some Led Zepplin n Kyle made me n Jenelle eggs... Then Matt made sausage... n everyone ate breakfast. Matt had to go to football at like a quarter to 8 so they all left around 7:30... after Toft n Aaron had a mini-brawl on my couch... *sigh* boys.
After they left Jenelle crashed on my couch.. I cleaned up for a while n then decided to sleep for an hour or so. Woke up 4 hours later somewhat annoyed that my alarm didn't go off... but said fuck it cuz it didn't matter at that point anyways. Jenelle was already up, we chilled for a lil bit n then I walked her to the bus stop n sat there with her for about half n hour till it finally came. Didn't walk home the long way. but peeked over the hill jus to check... no jeep. I think they might be on vacation or somethin. Who knows. Got home n kicked back for a couple hours.... was s'posed ta chill with Jensen but he cancled n so instead I went with Jenelle to John n Peggy's house cuz their kitty jus had kittens. Mom said she'd rather get a kitten that we could train than have Gracie back. Sooo I was over there, was s'posed ta pick one out but couldn't choose by the time we had to leave. We spent the whole time there with the kids.... they're cuties. Then... oh yes. now I remember.
So on the way home last night in the car I was listenin to Yellowcard... and it seemed almost EVERY SONG reminded me of Ricky. Then in one of the songs one line jus hit me a lil too hard after the recent events... n I jus kinda sat there mouth open, teary eyes wide, staring straight out the window barely blinking. Thinkin about Ricky. And exactly how much I miss him n don't wanna lose him at all. *How can I lose something I don't even fully have...? Oh well I :have him" enough... enough to keep me happy*. So that pretty much set the mood for the evening... when I got home I packed up the rest of my bookshelf n then layed down, got an idea for another poem for Ricky so I wrote it down... didn't get far but it's a start. Wonder if there'll be a finish? But yea I finally went to sleep around 1:30 i guess.... extremely exhausted from the all nighter the night before *not countin the 4 hours in the am*. That then puts it at today which I already talked about. k... backtrack a lil more.
Tuesday.. wait no.. now I'm all confused. Monday I guess it musta been.. in the mornin I walked to Juliet's house.. met her half way. We ate food n chilled... jus talked. We figured out that I haven't been to her house in about 6 MONTHS!!! How crazy, huh? She played me her songs on guitar n one on the piano... they made me happy :) Jus like they always do! We layed on the trampoline for a while n tried to get Evan to come over.... but he was at work n then had to go to Guitar Center. Me Evan n Juliet are gunna hopefully hang out next week... I want him to teach me how to play the drums!!!!! And they might work on a song together? Dunno but I've never really hung outwith Evan except for like Juliet's b-day party. So that'll prolly be tight.
Only a week till school pics.. then school starts in umm exactly 2 weeks from today I believe. I didn't realize it was that soon at all, but I'm sorta glad. This has been a well needed break from school... WOW I jus realized I haven't been hardly depressed at all! :) A couple times I let things get to me but not nearly as bad as we all know it was during school... k well maybe we ALL don't know but still. I know. Guess that's all that really matters in this case.
So next week: Hopefully chillin with Evan n Juliet, Hopefully chillin with Alex, Hopefully gettin my kitten on Friday, Let's see... what else... I donno I'm tired I can't think of anything else I'm sposd ta do next week... Oh... Hopefully finish cleanin up my room... maybe get it moved around????? That's stretchin it but hey it's a goal. And then of course there's the usual chillin with Heidi n Jenelle, maybe Matt Kyle n them but who knows.
I'm off to sleep... this lil Zabey Baby's tired as hell.... still. Gunna go lay in bed, maybe work on that poem I started for Ricky... n go to sleep before it gets too late. Still not sure what I'm doin tomorrow, so I better figure it out early. Maybe I could fit all those people into one day? Hmmmmm prolly not but meh.
I Love You Ricky.
*He loves when I love him* 0=)