ello
Haven't given this much thought, really. School's getting kinda hectic along with the other stuff thats going on. I've got tons of work to do for English (and the only reason I'm not doing it now is because I think I deserve at least a little bit of a break) and I got $59.50 doing inventory at my mom's work today. I broke another finger playing football in gym...yes, again. Good part about it is that I dont have to play but the bad part is that I have to wear the splint again. That thing gets in the way too much...
I went to my brother's soccer game and yesterday and guess who I saw! =/ ... I didn't get attention from them at all but I'm positive that they saw me, though. It's kinda pissing me off that I didnt turn around and say "hi" or whatever. Something was holding me back at the time. I waved to socko on the bus though, and someone blonde girl had said hi to me but I dont remember who she was. Half of me wants to let go of the two of them and everytime I get close, something happens that makes me go back to the way I was originally feeling. I can't stand being like this and even though I've accepted the fact that to them I'm gone and don't matter anymore, something in the back of my mind keeps saying "maybe..." and yeah...I just don't know.
I went to my brother's soccer game and yesterday and guess who I saw! =/ ... I didn't get attention from them at all but I'm positive that they saw me, though. It's kinda pissing me off that I didnt turn around and say "hi" or whatever. Something was holding me back at the time. I waved to socko on the bus though, and someone blonde girl had said hi to me but I dont remember who she was. Half of me wants to let go of the two of them and everytime I get close, something happens that makes me go back to the way I was originally feeling. I can't stand being like this and even though I've accepted the fact that to them I'm gone and don't matter anymore, something in the back of my mind keeps saying "maybe..." and yeah...I just don't know.