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I've been having strange and interesting days. Last weekend was a perfect blend of fun and just... horror. I can't really talk about the horror part, but needless to say, when I'm not worrying about myself, it's pretty fair to assume I'm worrying about my family or trying to put out fires on that end. I don't think my parents have really been okay for years and years, since before the divorce, but I miss the days when I was young and innocent enough not to notice. It was so simply in my head, back then.
But, you can't live in the past! I'm not crying about it today. That was Sunday.
Saturday, I was invited to this little dinner party at one of the elementary school teachers's houses, and it was just a lot of fun! Her husband is really bouncy and friendly, and he bought this ENORMOUS bottle of Japanese wine (like, sitting down, it was about the length of his torso!)--they also had a couple of Wishbone dogs (although they stayed outside, so I couldn't play with them very much), and they had a daughter and son (they were both very shy, although the son was kind of funny because he was always bursting out with a taciturn reply to some comment... Which I guess isn't the best trait in a person, but he was also nice and harmless!)
We ate enough food to feed an army, including this plate of raisin butter that became the joke of the evening (because it was so delicious that everyone went back for it multiple times, but it was so "high calorie!")--It was just nice. We also sang songs around the piano, which has always been my dream to do since the first time I watched any of the old movies where the families and friends have parties in ballgowns and do so. That was the most pleasurable part of it all, I'm sure. <3
I've warily let myself get roped into a lot of plans this week, because I know it is important to get out and be with people, even if sometimes I'd rather just be home alone.
I'm on a Transformers kick again (I'm only familiar with Bayverse, and since Sam and Bumblebee are my favorite characters, I'm not sure I'll be entirely satisfied by the cartoons? But I might try to give them a watch, anyway.)--This is a little bit depressing, because I'm pretty sure most of the others (1) who participated in the Bayverse Transformers fandom, and (2) who's favorite characters were Sam and Bumblebee have wandered away from the fandom... I feel quite lonely! It's difficult for me when I fall back into a fandom I used to love, and find it deserted, haha. ;) Some never had much of a fandom to begin with. For example, it's always quite awkward when I desperately feel like reading Labyrinth fanfiction... Because there is so little of it, and what's there is really hit or miss. (I guess that can be said for all fandoms, but usually there's a bigger pool to draw material from, haha!)
Anyway, I had my evening class last night, and tonight I'm doing zumba, then tomorrow I have to worry about some graduation ceremony (I hope it doesn't rain, because I have to bicycle all around the city as it is, and I'll have to wear formalwear tomorrow), and Saturday night is watching a volleyball game, and Sunday night is a potluck party... I know when I'm old I'll be glad I had all of these experiences, but in this moment I'm just wanting to lay down and watch a movie. ;) I can't be satisfied...
When I'm alone, I crave friends, and when I'm out with friends, I crave to be alone.
But, you can't live in the past! I'm not crying about it today. That was Sunday.
Saturday, I was invited to this little dinner party at one of the elementary school teachers's houses, and it was just a lot of fun! Her husband is really bouncy and friendly, and he bought this ENORMOUS bottle of Japanese wine (like, sitting down, it was about the length of his torso!)--they also had a couple of Wishbone dogs (although they stayed outside, so I couldn't play with them very much), and they had a daughter and son (they were both very shy, although the son was kind of funny because he was always bursting out with a taciturn reply to some comment... Which I guess isn't the best trait in a person, but he was also nice and harmless!)
We ate enough food to feed an army, including this plate of raisin butter that became the joke of the evening (because it was so delicious that everyone went back for it multiple times, but it was so "high calorie!")--It was just nice. We also sang songs around the piano, which has always been my dream to do since the first time I watched any of the old movies where the families and friends have parties in ballgowns and do so. That was the most pleasurable part of it all, I'm sure. <3
I've warily let myself get roped into a lot of plans this week, because I know it is important to get out and be with people, even if sometimes I'd rather just be home alone.
I'm on a Transformers kick again (I'm only familiar with Bayverse, and since Sam and Bumblebee are my favorite characters, I'm not sure I'll be entirely satisfied by the cartoons? But I might try to give them a watch, anyway.)--This is a little bit depressing, because I'm pretty sure most of the others (1) who participated in the Bayverse Transformers fandom, and (2) who's favorite characters were Sam and Bumblebee have wandered away from the fandom... I feel quite lonely! It's difficult for me when I fall back into a fandom I used to love, and find it deserted, haha. ;) Some never had much of a fandom to begin with. For example, it's always quite awkward when I desperately feel like reading Labyrinth fanfiction... Because there is so little of it, and what's there is really hit or miss. (I guess that can be said for all fandoms, but usually there's a bigger pool to draw material from, haha!)
Anyway, I had my evening class last night, and tonight I'm doing zumba, then tomorrow I have to worry about some graduation ceremony (I hope it doesn't rain, because I have to bicycle all around the city as it is, and I'll have to wear formalwear tomorrow), and Saturday night is watching a volleyball game, and Sunday night is a potluck party... I know when I'm old I'll be glad I had all of these experiences, but in this moment I'm just wanting to lay down and watch a movie. ;) I can't be satisfied...
When I'm alone, I crave friends, and when I'm out with friends, I crave to be alone.