Two Small Words Can Be the Hardest to Say
No, I'm not talking about "I'm Sorry", I'm actually talking about "I Do".
Yes, anyone that knows me, knows that I've wanted to be married for as long as I've been alive. I've wanted my "Cinderella Story" and no, I won't have that, but I will be married, to a man that adores me, would do anything for me (with the exception of allowing me to keep all the PINK in our bedroom and letting the dog sleep under the covers with us). I am NUTS about "D", love him with all my heart and can't wait until we can finally get married, only now, between Uncle Sam wanting him to continually play war games before deploying and my home life (lease, school, work, well, ya know, my life), we may not be able to get married until after he gets back from Iraq.
Either way, I'm going to go nuts without him. I'm gonna be a basket case with him over there, but what can I say, I have no choice, and he joined just for this (damn him).
The worst thing here is this, "J" takes care of my rent, I marry "D", well, "J" will finally be gone. Unfortunately, if we can't get things worked out fast enough and if we can't get the marriage set before he leaves, I may be leaving my haven to go to the pits of hell to wait for "D" to return from war. Long story short, I might move home to be with my family to wait on my future husband to come home. I can't stand this.... I know this sounds horrible, but I'm in a rush to marry him and it's STILL not really going to make much of a difference because he'll be gone to the pits of hell himself.
I never realized how hard it could be to say "I Do" when you love someone but know you're possibly sending them off to a demise.
I want to say "I Do" so that my very own war hero can come home to me and we can finally have our life.
Yes, anyone that knows me, knows that I've wanted to be married for as long as I've been alive. I've wanted my "Cinderella Story" and no, I won't have that, but I will be married, to a man that adores me, would do anything for me (with the exception of allowing me to keep all the PINK in our bedroom and letting the dog sleep under the covers with us). I am NUTS about "D", love him with all my heart and can't wait until we can finally get married, only now, between Uncle Sam wanting him to continually play war games before deploying and my home life (lease, school, work, well, ya know, my life), we may not be able to get married until after he gets back from Iraq.
Either way, I'm going to go nuts without him. I'm gonna be a basket case with him over there, but what can I say, I have no choice, and he joined just for this (damn him).
The worst thing here is this, "J" takes care of my rent, I marry "D", well, "J" will finally be gone. Unfortunately, if we can't get things worked out fast enough and if we can't get the marriage set before he leaves, I may be leaving my haven to go to the pits of hell to wait for "D" to return from war. Long story short, I might move home to be with my family to wait on my future husband to come home. I can't stand this.... I know this sounds horrible, but I'm in a rush to marry him and it's STILL not really going to make much of a difference because he'll be gone to the pits of hell himself.
I never realized how hard it could be to say "I Do" when you love someone but know you're possibly sending them off to a demise.
I want to say "I Do" so that my very own war hero can come home to me and we can finally have our life.