Life goes on.
So I start college Tuesday, can't say that I'm excited, but I can't say I'm disappointed. Classes are done, I dont have my book, I personally don't care, I'll get them at some point.
I'm almost numb to most things that have been happening. I'm happy, but there is a lot missing from my life, I used to go out and do crazy things with good friends, now i just get high and fish and then laugh the whole time. I honestly have no problem with that kind of stuff but I guess it can get old. I wish I had my freedom again but still have what I want in my life. Can't always get what you want ya know?
I kind of want to run away, but not have anyone be mad at me, even my closest friends gave up on me, and when someone told me that, I just wanted to cry. I love my fiance but I love my best friends whom I never get to see. I guess this part of my life is the real growing up portion of it, who do i choose, and why can't I just have both?
Its cool though, maybe I can just become numb enough to get hit by a truck and just not happen to feel it. Eh thats a little too emo, well I just hope to be immuned to some of the things that go on in my life and just get over it.
I'm almost numb to most things that have been happening. I'm happy, but there is a lot missing from my life, I used to go out and do crazy things with good friends, now i just get high and fish and then laugh the whole time. I honestly have no problem with that kind of stuff but I guess it can get old. I wish I had my freedom again but still have what I want in my life. Can't always get what you want ya know?
I kind of want to run away, but not have anyone be mad at me, even my closest friends gave up on me, and when someone told me that, I just wanted to cry. I love my fiance but I love my best friends whom I never get to see. I guess this part of my life is the real growing up portion of it, who do i choose, and why can't I just have both?
Its cool though, maybe I can just become numb enough to get hit by a truck and just not happen to feel it. Eh thats a little too emo, well I just hope to be immuned to some of the things that go on in my life and just get over it.