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Hey guys*
What's goin on? Sorry I haven't written in this thing in a while...but this week has just been terrible*!...Wednsday was probably one of the worst days of my life*! That morning you know was just a regular day...everything seemed to be just fine...then in second block I found out that Nana (Jessie's grandmother) had a massive heartattack and died*!...I mean I was so close to her...I sat w/ her at all tha ball games and she came and hugged me anytime I saw her...she was like family to me...I loved her like she was my own grandmother*!...Tha thing is...she was healthier than I am and I saw her the night before at our games...and she was just so happy to be there...and had no clue what was going to happen the next day!* I just feel really bad cause I didn't talk to her as much as I wish I would have...and that I didn't tell her I loved her before she left*! I know that she knew I loved her...I just regret not telling her*! Nana was the most amazing person I have ever met...I never heard her say anything bad about anyone...and she always had a smile on her face*! But it just isn't the same w/ her not being at all tha games...I feel so bad for that whole family..cause it was so unexpected...and they all loved her so much*! I would give anything for her to be back for just one more basketball game*!...So she could see Jess play one last time...and so I could go and sit w/ her and cheer w/ her*! I went to her visitation tonite...and it killed me...I didn't think I would ever stop crying*! When I saw her body...I just broke down...I am going to miss her so much*! I have never taken a death this hard before in my life...and I really don't know what to do about it*! I mean there have been deaths in my family...but I have never taken one like this...and she wasn't even a part of my family*!...And poor Jessie is taking this really hard...cause her and Nana were like so close...and during first block...Jess said "I don't know what I would do w/o Nana"...then she found out in second block that she had died*!...This is going to be really hard for a lot of ppl...cause so many ppl loved Nana*! But I've got myself crying again...so I'm going to get off here*!
*I love you Nana* *3-13-02* *please pray for her family*
What's goin on? Sorry I haven't written in this thing in a while...but this week has just been terrible*!...Wednsday was probably one of the worst days of my life*! That morning you know was just a regular day...everything seemed to be just fine...then in second block I found out that Nana (Jessie's grandmother) had a massive heartattack and died*!...I mean I was so close to her...I sat w/ her at all tha ball games and she came and hugged me anytime I saw her...she was like family to me...I loved her like she was my own grandmother*!...Tha thing is...she was healthier than I am and I saw her the night before at our games...and she was just so happy to be there...and had no clue what was going to happen the next day!* I just feel really bad cause I didn't talk to her as much as I wish I would have...and that I didn't tell her I loved her before she left*! I know that she knew I loved her...I just regret not telling her*! Nana was the most amazing person I have ever met...I never heard her say anything bad about anyone...and she always had a smile on her face*! But it just isn't the same w/ her not being at all tha games...I feel so bad for that whole family..cause it was so unexpected...and they all loved her so much*! I would give anything for her to be back for just one more basketball game*!...So she could see Jess play one last time...and so I could go and sit w/ her and cheer w/ her*! I went to her visitation tonite...and it killed me...I didn't think I would ever stop crying*! When I saw her body...I just broke down...I am going to miss her so much*! I have never taken a death this hard before in my life...and I really don't know what to do about it*! I mean there have been deaths in my family...but I have never taken one like this...and she wasn't even a part of my family*!...And poor Jessie is taking this really hard...cause her and Nana were like so close...and during first block...Jess said "I don't know what I would do w/o Nana"...then she found out in second block that she had died*!...This is going to be really hard for a lot of ppl...cause so many ppl loved Nana*! But I've got myself crying again...so I'm going to get off here*!
*I love you Nana* *3-13-02* *please pray for her family*