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I dont know what to do anymore...I know all I can ever accomplish with this journal is to complain.
I never get to do anything that I want to do anymore. The only thing I manage to work into a day is basketball, school, and homework. Mom and Dad wont allow me to drive anywhere but to Haysi and back. I would like to be able to just wake up on a Saturday and go to Norton and shop. But they wont let me. I just feel like they dont trust me at all anymore. I cant talk to them about it either because they say I drive too fast, but I try to do better now, they just wont listen. Im not even allowed to drive to Grundy by myself and thats like 20 minutes from my house.
Another thing is that I dont like alot of things about myself anymore. I mean I know I usually make a joke out of everything and go on, but somethings really really get to me. I mean I know no one really means anything by what they say, but sometimes I wonder if they really think it or mean it. Someone tonight did...It just got to me I guess. I know I shouldnt let it because I dont even know this girl, and I joked about it with friends, but when I got home it just started bothering me.
I guess I just dont know how to take care of somethings. I mean I kinda want someone to date right now, but with my looks, I wont be finding anyone. I wish I could alter things, but I guess this is me, and by the looks of things its gonna be lonely here for awhile. I just give up. Im not searching anymore or trying to talk to anyone, if they want to talk to me then they can come to me and do so. No more pressuring or making friends talk to guys, I quit.
But here is the decision I have made...Im gonna lose some weight, take things more serious, and quit complaining to everyone.
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whit
I never get to do anything that I want to do anymore. The only thing I manage to work into a day is basketball, school, and homework. Mom and Dad wont allow me to drive anywhere but to Haysi and back. I would like to be able to just wake up on a Saturday and go to Norton and shop. But they wont let me. I just feel like they dont trust me at all anymore. I cant talk to them about it either because they say I drive too fast, but I try to do better now, they just wont listen. Im not even allowed to drive to Grundy by myself and thats like 20 minutes from my house.
Another thing is that I dont like alot of things about myself anymore. I mean I know I usually make a joke out of everything and go on, but somethings really really get to me. I mean I know no one really means anything by what they say, but sometimes I wonder if they really think it or mean it. Someone tonight did...It just got to me I guess. I know I shouldnt let it because I dont even know this girl, and I joked about it with friends, but when I got home it just started bothering me.
I guess I just dont know how to take care of somethings. I mean I kinda want someone to date right now, but with my looks, I wont be finding anyone. I wish I could alter things, but I guess this is me, and by the looks of things its gonna be lonely here for awhile. I just give up. Im not searching anymore or trying to talk to anyone, if they want to talk to me then they can come to me and do so. No more pressuring or making friends talk to guys, I quit.
But here is the decision I have made...Im gonna lose some weight, take things more serious, and quit complaining to everyone.
No comments on this entry. Thanks...
whit