disappointed again
so my mom drinking should be nothing new to me, but every time it happens i get just as let down and hurt as i did the first time. i guess i just thought that she would be doing better by now. she has been drinking and messing up her life since she was 16 and she still hasn't learned. i don't understand it, she finally had things going good for her, a job, boyfriend and a house to live in and she just went back to drinking. she had finally gotten a job, but instead of putting the money towards things that she needed she put it towards alcohol and ended up losing her job because of it. what would make a person want to continuously go through life this way? everyone says that it's a disease and that she can't help it, but that's bullshit. it's like saying smoking is a disease and i can't control my habit. she chooses to do it and can't take the blame for it, she always finds someone or something to put it on. i mean if you are going to make a decision at least have some guts and stand up for your choices. if she really wanted to quit then she would, she would go to rehab and actually try to get something out of it. instead of wasting her time and other peoples money by just going to make others happy. i mean what's the point? i don't know anymore i'm tired of feeling this way over it and i'm tired of telling her the same things every time she hurts me. i mean she is my mom and i do love her and i'll always be there for her, but i think i have just given up hope.